ramblings.

2006-02-15T20:04:00.000+08:00

Love the Angel and Rogue pics.

Sweetness

2006-02-15T17:42:00.000+08:00

Lovee

I chose Temasek over Victoria after all. I'm satisfied. =)

O results.

2006-02-10T21:22:00.000+08:00

MIA-ed a lot but I'm just back cuz today, the O results were released. Like finally, after weeks or suspense and secrecy. I was honestly disappointed today. Though I know I should be thankful. But I didn't meet my expectations. But... come to think of it, I can live with my grades. I'm a sixer. And I didn't flunk my humans! =)

Just a bit apprehensive about the upcoming decisions to make. It's quite a scary thought. Cuz I don't wanna be separated from the friends I've already made.

To everyone who did better than your expectations, congrats. To the rest, it's not the end of the world. Hold your head up high and look forward. There's nowhere to go but up. So, never give up and stay optimistic, yeah?

ps. Happy Birthday, Nas. =)

2006-01-18T20:09:00.000+08:00

OMG so super cool. I found out that there's another Nepalese girl in TJ. Like how awesome is that? Now, the problem is I gotta find her...

Oh, and I feel really horrible about knowing people talk about me. It's like so not nice. Yeah, I've been on the giving end but the recieving end really sucks.

Bogged with school. But I like the feeling of being busy.

You know you're missed by a friend when...

2006-01-09T23:19:00.000+08:00

Love you, boo. =)

PDPs and cliques. Hockey anyone?

2006-01-09T21:07:00.000+08:00

The lectures have started, but it's still super slack here in TJ. Friday's the best: 7.25 report to school, have lecture at 9.15 to 10.15. Then wait till 12.15 to leave school. It's such a waste of time. But got more time to "bond", so to speak. By next week or the week after, we should be getting outta school only at like 4 or 5 plus.

Speaking of all this timings, damn it, I was late today. And it's only like the first day of school school. Damn bus just drove by the bus stop. The DM is very strict too. We told him 12 was like totally screwed up and off schedule, and he says well, it's our fault and we should leave our houses at least 20 mins earlier. Boo.

It's surprising that so quickly, I've already gotten myself involved in a clique. My class is CG01/06 a.k.a triple science and as per normal, we are assumed to be nerds. Quite true I guess. But we're really not full-time nerds, just part-time, save for one guy who's super extreme. He studies 24/7, doesn't wanna join in any class stuff and only wants to go to the library. Get this - he even asked us who's Brad Pitt. That's way extreme and it's like he has no life. But to him, books and studying is the only thing he knows as life. He doesn't even watch the telly! Only the 9.30 news.

But I digressed. Back to the clique. I've realised at over 5 days, I only mostly hang with 4 other people from my class. Clement, Ye Wei, Dahlia and Bala. They're like really super funny people la. We all have similar thinking and stuff. But that's how cliques are formed, right? Because the people in the clique can relate to you.

Anyways, I've signed myself up for hockey. Met the coach today and he seems super nice. But actually, I'm still undecided on my PDP, which is basically CCA. In fact, I'm so undecided, I even signed up for the OAC orienteering camp! The best part is, I've influenced Dahlia to be sporty. =) She actually went for hockey trials and is going for the OAC camp too. That's so cool.

TJ

2006-01-07T00:53:00.000+08:00

.. is awesome. So far. =)

Orientation was a blast and we rocked with Ronin tonight. So much for my stereotyped impression of TJ. And I love the mass dancing. Week one time table is super slack too. Lots and lots of breaks. No more regrets now. You hear that Byron? Even if you have hot gay guys in ACSI, I'm still not gonna regret anymore.

Alrite. This is just like a filler post cause I don't feel like sleeping yet. Got training with Renegades tomorrow. Gonna be so dead beat. And finally gonna see Dmn people. I honestly miss them.

2005-12-27T10:53:00.000+08:00

As usual, I felt like an 8 year old on the flight. Awesome view.

Just as all the fun was just beginning, I had to return. Talk about getting snapped back to reality. You know, I really regret having to come back so soon.

I chickened out..

2005-12-18T13:58:00.000+08:00

from the nose piercing. Still undecided. Boo.. Help?

Got Temasek. Unhappy, somehow. Why?

Darling hband,

Use that as a bikini set? The top maybe. But the transparent bottom? A little too riske, no?

Somewhere in KTM

2005-12-13T14:25:00.000+08:00

Ah, I've missed a proper Internet connection. The stupid house com still runs on dial-up and is so slow I fall asleep waiting for a page to load.

It's cold here. But a nice change. Stepped outta the plane and into 11degC of cold,cold,cold. And that was at 1 in the afternoon. One thing I absolutely love about being here is no matter where I am, I just gotta turn around and tadah! The himalayas will be glistening right back. I wish Ihad taken a pic of it on the plane but unfortunately, didn't get a window seat and I happened to be stuck sitting next to drunks. The mountains certainly take my breath away. I think one day, somewhere in the distant future, I'll try to conquer Mt.E. =)

Sweetest Goodbye II

2005-12-01T23:28:00.000+08:00

*Pictures courtesy of Hanan

First there was swimming, then cookingggg--

Then I ran off and joined the slackers at the playground

And then we ran off to play ice and water! Remember that game =)

Sweetest Goodbye I

2005-12-01T11:44:00.000+08:00

The class BBQ was fun too, mostly because we played stupid childish games that brought out the kids in us And later on, went up and just sat around talking till 1am

I still need to get yest pics from Hanannnnnnnnn

Things I loved about prom

2005-11-30T01:51:00.000+08:00

1) Pictures!! But I didnt take as many as I should have Just as well, when I got home, I was horrified by how I looked

2) Awesome company We had a blast on the dancefloor It was quite pathetic initially Once the prom king and queen started the dance, noone danced But later, it was fun

3) Looking at everyone being all dressed up The Indons were hot! =) But I think some people wore too much makeup All I saw were colourful faces that did not flatter

4) The food, I guess Actually, I didnt find it quite appetising but a girls gotta eat

Damnit, Im finding it hard to find things I liked about prom That probably tells how disappointing the event was Afterwards was worse because we didnt know where to go Ended up walking across Orchard to Cineleisure and even then, noone had any idea where to go It was drizzling lightly so while the big group of us were walking, the guys decided to get sweet and lent their dates their blazers Awwww =)

Pictures gonna be uploaded next time Im sleepyy and later in the evening, theres gonna be a class BBQ

I should see a therapist

2005-11-27T19:19:00.000+08:00

Bold those that apply to you.

i have a cell phone.
i have friends that use me.
i am an only child.
i love dangly earrings.
i love cold weather.
i'm obsessed with the computer.
i have shot a gun before.
i can't live without music.
i have no tolerance of ignorant people.
i have ridden on a motorcycle before.
i'll be in this town forever.
i've been to 5 other countries.
i get annoyed easily.
i eventually want kids.
i have neat handwriting.
i have more than a few horrible memories.
i am addicted to chocolate.
i am an atheist.
i love airplane rides.
i love taking pictures.
i hate people who are fake.
i can be mean when i want to.
my parents care about my grades.
one of my best friends is a girl.
i have way too many wallets.
i'm obsessed with lip gloss.
i am easy to talk to.
i would never eat raw fish.
i cry easily.
i hate when people are late.
i procrastinate.
i love winter.
i have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
i love to sleep.
i wish i were smarter.
i'm afraid of flying.
i hate drama.
i bite my nails.
i have been on an 8 hour drive.
i never fight with my parents.
i love the beach.
i have never had the chicken pox.
i have gone out in public in my pajamas.
i can't control my emotions.
i have a best friend.
i have moved more than once.
i truly love my friends.
i have braces.
i have never broken a bone.
i hate my computer.
i love girls that play the drums.
i state the obvious.
i'm a happy person.
i love to dance.
i love to sing.
i love cleaning my room.
i tend to get jealous very easily.
i love cute underwear.
i love night better than day.
i don't like to study for tests.
i have been on the phone for over 5 hours.
i am too forgiving.
i have horrible sense of direction.
i miss elementary school.
i'm a daddy's boy.
i love the color pink.
i love to sew.
my eye color changes.
i should see a therapist.
i played on a girls sports team.
i become stressed easily.
i hate/detest liars.
i love the smell of rain.
i love my family.
i hate needles.
i am a perfectionist.
i always wanted to learn to play the drums.
i hate the feeling of failure.
i have friends in other countries.
i know how to cook.
i can be quite selfish.
at times, i still act like a little kid.
i have food allergies.
i love to read.
i wish i were more motivated for school.
i love getting stuff in the mail.
i have problems with letting go of old feelings.
i hate being alone.
i love summer.
i love the weekends.
i love black eyeliner.
i think I'm a looker.
i type with one hand.
i live in a one story house.
i wear make-up.
i have never rode on an underground subway.
i can't swim.
i have bad memories.
i go to church.
i sing in the shower.
i hate cheerleaders.
i usually get what i want.
i have been on stage before.
i love roller coasters.
no one knows my full story of my life.
i am close to my parents.
i don't have a curfew.

Hello!

2005-11-24T15:42:00.000+08:00

Arab boy says hi too =)

Batch of 2005 has officially graduated I dont feel any different but the ceremony yesterday was touching Mr Peterson dug out our sec1 pictures to make a slide slow for us I was feeling so nostalgic, I almost cried We were all so puny!

See--

1B (2002)

Went to town after that with Sher, Syid and Huda Met up with Melati and Aisyah too We all are prom-dress-less But I figured it doesnt matter so much anymore We could always look forward to JC prom =)

Trained today after forever Sparred with the C div and they seem alright, better than my batch when we were C div Coach is coaching Dunman again, just the C div though I bet the B div are wishing coach would train them too

Arab boy and I -

2005-11-21T01:19:00.000+08:00

- went to catch Harry Potter just now at Marina Square Im a bit disappointed in the movie The movie was just a string of events, lacking in suspense I wanted to see the Quidditch world cup damn it! But I loved the CGI I am such a nerd =) Shopped a bit before that Im still not any closer to finding a prom dress That sucks Later, when I told dad we were waiting for a cab, he was like, well good luck then True enough, Marina Square is like a really really bad place to get a cab After waiting for half an hour, ended up MRT-ing back anyways

I couldnt help buying this bracelet Im a sucker for accessories

JC called about playing tomorrow night for renegades It would have been fine if it was in the afternoon but night, gotta think about it first Dont wanna worry dad again Hes so uber sweet When I got home just now, he was still up waiting for me And he wasnt mad or what He just asked about the stuff I bought How sweet is that =)

Where do we go from here

2005-11-19T21:42:00.000+08:00

The 4E group of people, plus Syid, Sher etc went jalan raya today I thought itd be weird so I opted out and chose to spend the day by myself instead Nonetheless, I feel very accomplished =) Basically because I spent the day clearing my room of worksheets, notes and workbooks I gathered over the past 4 years of secondary school Gonna throw them all out but Im choosing to hold onto the textbooks for a while Who knows, God forbid, I might need them again Anyway, my room is spick and span now

I been thinking I whine about not fitting in but when Im given opportunities to do that, I dont let myself I let fear get the better of me and choose to stay in my comfort zone Living in Sg for the last decade still doesnt convince me that this is home I dont feel welcomed even though all the people Ive met are honestly warm and inviting Instead, I find myself wishing to be a kid again, living in Nepal, away from the life I have now Im awfully glad Im going back again, after 2 long years I think Ive been homesick Besides, I realise that now, in our teens, all my cousins and I are getting along in a way that Ive never experienced before

Found this ugly lame skirt in my familys old stuff so I tried it on and it was hilarious

Random pics from 2 years ago I cant wait to go back =)

2005-11-18T22:36:00.000+08:00

You are 'Gregg shorthand'. Originally designed to
enable people to write faster, it is also very
useful for writing things which one does not
want other people to read, inasmuch as almost
no one knows shorthand any more.

You know how important it is to do things
efficiently and on time. You also value your
privacy, and (unlike some people) you do not
pretend to be friends with just everyone; that
would be ridiculous. When you do make friends,
you take them seriously, and faithfully keep
what they confide in you to yourself.
Unfortunately, the work which you do (which is
very important, of course) sometimes keeps you
away from social activities, and you are often
lonely. Your problem is that Gregg shorthand
has been obsolete for a long time.

What obsolete skill are you?
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Liberation

2005-11-18T19:02:00.000+08:00

Finally its over, O levels I mean
My full stop and question mark button area isn`t working properly
Nevermind, will be `inheriting` dad`s old com soon enough
O levels in one word: arrrrr!!
I`m so screwed
Can`t update much now
Busy making plans, plans to shop, train, go Nepal
Do everything possible under the sun before anxiety about the results set in
Byee have a nice holiday ya`ll =)

7 deadly sins

2005-11-03T22:52:00.000+08:00

Behold the strengths which I contain within.
The apparent harbinger of forthcoming sin.
My right to preserve, a visage to behold.
The powers acquired so deep that I fight to control.

I am Greed, the worthiest of sin,
To stop at nothing and fight to win.
No limits can hold me, no sky too high.
Everything is obtainable, anything else is a lie.

I am Gluttony, the companion of Greed,
The indulgence of taste, the craving of need.
To wallow in the senses or just the desire of flavour.
Life is already too short, so I set forth to savour.

I am Wrath, the oldest of my brothers.
I burn into your soul, I blind you to others.
I give you strength when you are at your most weak,
But take heed, for bloodlust will all be what you will seek.

I am Envy, the hub of my siblings.
I give power to my kind, I amplify the feelings
To have what others possess, whether qualities or goods.
I never stand people better than me, I deserve it rather than you should.

I am Sloth, no other has more apathy.
To lie back and relax, to be very much carefree.
Some may complain and say I get no work done.
But they always get a heart attack because they are no fun.

I am Lust, the sexiest of desire.
The primal need that sets your loins on fire.
I give great pleasure to those that worship me.
But none can run away for I am rooted deep within thee.

I am Pride, the last, the hardest of my kind.
I am the will, the courage and the confidence of mind.
I shall render you immune to abuse and all mental attack.
The price to pay is that selflessness and altruism is what you lack.

I am Humanity, the bearer of this curse and gift.
They are part of me, I cannot deny, for such will tear in me a rift.
So I seek to make use and master that which I have burning within.
Or I shall fall behind in suffering, an empty shell of what could have been.

2005-10-27T21:11:00.000+08:00

Um..Hello.

Bye! =)

2005-10-27T18:10:00.000+08:00

Okay.. so I'm finally back at the com. Haven't really felt like updating much, mostly because the only updates I have are about the ongoing GCSE. Practicals down, written papers to go.

Everytime I step out of the lab, I feel awful inside. People start comparing answers. More often then not, I'm one of those with way too many mistakes. I'd rather not know about them. In tuition, I'm famed for careless mistakes so it's likely I make them during practical too right? Dumb ones like forgetting to change the wrong answers. And lock-ups are terrible. 4A always gets the first shift see, so lock-up really sucks. Its usually from 9.30 to 2pm. In the AVT, with nothing to do.

I think the study leave is a bad, bad idea. For people like me, at least. I desperately look for excuses to do anything but study. Been in-line skating, swimming, watching movies, cartoons. Hit the books? Nah. Not yet.

Tell you something. This fella cannot skate even if his life depended on it. But he didn't fall once. I fell thrice!

Birthday

2005-10-15T17:19:00.000+08:00

Vanilla cake with lots and lots and lots of cream and strawberries. Damn sinful.

While waiting.. we found out Mrs Lim went and spoiled the surprise by telling Ms Tang we were going to have a party. Tsk! Party pooper. Boo.

"Okay, okay, I pose for you all."

Humongous card.

Sadly, didn't manage to get pics of people getting caked.

2005-10-11T21:03:00.000+08:00

Got a throbbing headache. Eurgh. And I'm plagued with perpetual lethargy because I'm tired but I don't wanna sleep. I've found I study better at night. Hmm..

Tomorrow's the last day of school before study leave. I'm not feeling that sense of urgency. I get hints of it but I haven't experienced it head on. If I ever do, maybe I'll go on a hiatus. Meanwhile, blogging will be cut down, I suppose. I have to force myself to. First practical is next Tuesday. If the June paper is anything to go by, O levels should be alright. Should be. But things never go the way I want them to. As Madhu loves to put it, life's like that.

Syid and I were bored yesterday. So we started that childish game. You know, you and some other person stand in front of each other and play rock, paper, scissors? The winner takes a step back and the loser has to spread his/her legs. The game continues as such until one of the players can't split any further. It's caught on with the class! Hahah. But it hurts like hell, I tell you. And some freaks started wondering if hymens have torn.

The class has given up on The Pianist. We've started watching Planet of the Apes instead. But since tomorrow's the last day of school, I doubt we'll finish the movie. Longest movie screenings in history, only in 4a. We watch bits and pieces for weeks on end. It's Ms Tang's birthday on Thurs. We've got a surprise for her. =) Suddenly, it seems the class is gelling together. A bit too late, ya?

This is so random. Bye. I need to slleep.. or at least do something productive.

2005-10-09T22:28:00.000+08:00

They were playing with my phone during night class. Only Syid seems to be the goondu who didn't know where to look.

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As some of you would know, Thurs was my birthday. Thanks to those who remembered. =)

My mum was waiting for me in the morning with a small cake complete with lighted candles. Dad was sleeping. Haha. It's always mothers who rememer such stuff. But sweet 16 isn't so sweet la. Not when it's so late in the year and it's just a month away from Os.

Happy Children's Day?

2005-10-01T20:19:00.000+08:00

Thanks for the tip, Praba.

Nadzerah, you must be hallucinating. Haha. Look around. There are blogs/people which/who are better.

No time to even go for training, Jud. Bogged down totally with loads of schoolwork.

Hello, Adam! =) How'd your Prelims go?

Plus you Lynn, there'll be 3 Lynns I know. It isn't much la but it still is.

So little time, so much to do. My teacher cancelled tuition today, so I'm taking time off. Blahh. With night study plus all the practise papers, even going home ASAP to study is useless because there is no time. Zilch.

It's Children's Day. October. Oh. My. God. The gravity of the O levels is starting to get to me. The practicals are just 17 days away! Chinese is just 30 days away and the rest of the subjects are a month plus 8 days away. I honestly don't know if I'm ready. Somebody teach me Lit, please.

Some days, right, I feel like a complete dork. Today was one of those days. First thing in the morning, I was awakened by the sound of drilling. I thought it was just my dad, trying to be the handyman of the house. Bleary-eyed, groggy, with my hair looking like a lion's mane, I went out to see what my dad was doing. I walked out of my room and the first person that greeted me was a ~~bangla~~ foreign worker. It's an absolutely horrendous feeling to be seen at your worst by a complete stranger! Damn embarrassing, can? Blahh!

Then later, I got tongue tied for no apparent reason. I felt bad la. And I didn't know how to apologise for my behaviour so I started mumbling. But the thing is, even the mumbling was incoherent. I felt bloody stupidified. No, not stupefied as in astonished but stupidified (no such word) as in literally getting more and more dumb, as if my IQ was dropping. I wish I could've turned myself around and served myself a huge can of whoopass. Nothing remotely close to an apology came out of my mouth, anyway.

Gave Buk his super-late-Xmas-present-turned-into-Children's-Day present.

I have a very caring class chairman. He actually bothers to sms everyone to remind us of the several mock tests coming up. The nicest and the most smartest kid in school. Some of my classmates seem excited about prom. Lea Yee even went down on bended knee with a ring to ask Jessica to the prom. (But later, I heard it was all an act. So evil, right?) But the confirmed list of those attending prom says otherwise. So far, only 24 people have ticked against their names. That's only half the class. 18 Nov is redemption and 29 Nov is the night, figuratively our Graduation.

I'm watching The Weakest Link on BBC. Andy Roddick is a participant. He's really a himbo. Hah! Like it wasn't obvious.

I <3 Nokia phones. NOT

2005-09-25T15:52:00.000+08:00

My stupid phone shut off on me and isn't willing to switch on.. AGAIN!! Stupid Nokia phones. I'm now stuck with the huge bulky flip one, also a Nokia. I'd really appreciate it if you people SMS-ed me so i can save the numbers all over again. Thanks.

And Lynn, sorry for that case of mistaken identity. Haha..there's just too many Lynns.

I can't think of any title because this is so random.

2005-09-24T15:41:00.000+08:00

Byron, sadly, there isn't much time to shop nowadays, if you haven't noticed.

Sherr, the addiction is good la! I'm craving for it now. Hahah.. Am so, so, so getting fat.

Hello, Lynn! Are you the sec3, friend of Nadzerah and Shahira Lynn?

Hey, Jud. Thanks. And yea, it's Prelims. But you know what? I think you'll do a lot better. Good luck for your Prelims! =) Ahh, it's been so long since I trained with you or the other PRC girls...

Prelim results. Euphoria. And it's very funny, my total score is 666 over 900. The devil's own, eh? But anyway, now, worry sets in. I'm scared that with the results, expectations, not just my own, are being set sky high. It'd be terribly disappointing if I couldn't meet them. Oh, and I'm excited about the IR thing. Wouldn't it be so cool if that American company really did get involved in it and Broadway productions could be held in Sg. I'd so love it.

The pool is just gorgeous at night. Picture doesn't do it justice. I forgot what else I wanted to blog about. And I'm famished now, craving for Auntie Anne's and for some reason, Magic Wok.

Onomatopoeia

2005-09-20T22:19:00.000+08:00

(Disclaimer: This entry is in no way an attempt to be poetic. I know I cannot be. Sounds are interesting. I was amused.)

Rumble.
Goes my tummy.

Chomp.
I love chicken biryani.

Gulp.
I drank too much.

Eurgh.
I think I'm bloated.

Burp.
Compliments to the chef.

Crack.
Across the sky, web-like flashes creep.

Rumble.
The angels are about to weep.

Shuffle shuffle.
"I'm late, I'm late, I'm late for my date."

Pitter-patter.
The storm is here.

Foooooooo..
The winds howl.

Yawn.
Add Maths, such a chore.

Blahblahblah
Goes Ms. Fatimah.

Hiss.
Cars run down the street.

Yawn.
"Okay, Ashwini, you can go."

Splash.
Darn puddle.

Crunch.

Uh-oh.

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Ew. Poor snail.

Back..

2005-09-20T18:42:00.000+08:00

I guess I kind of MIA-ed for a while there. I was super lazy. Sides, prelims. What more do I have to say.

Hello Nadzerah! =)

And I agree with Aishah. Chijmes sucked. Romance isn't all it's made out to be, remember Byron? Anyway, how could it be romantic when the walls cause reverberations and with the smell of food and hearing all the noise, the place was more hawker centre-ish. Least, that's what it seemed to me.

Clariee. You're the only one who cares, child. Haha.. =)

Oh, and to that little gerger, evn tho euu think euu are berii kewl, euu niid 2 rmb tt wat euu see here is jux e tip of e iceberg bcoz euu are jux an outsider lookin in. so if my bloggiex here bothers euu horx, click tt lil "x" in e top rite hnd corner of urr screen. byeex. =)

Good riddance. I agree this is a public blog and everyone has the right to think what they want but at the same time, we should remember that people are different and just because they don't conform to your idea of "cool" or normal doesn not give you the right to judge others. ~~Grow up!~~

Blahh. Before, I ramble on some more, let's get the results over with.

Eng - A2(with out oral)
Chi - C5, I think
E.Maths - A1
A.Maths - A1
Geog/SS - C5
Bio - A2
Chem - A1
Phy - A1
Lit - B3

Not too shabby, but I still think I could've done better. But isn't it always that way? Never satisfied with results.. A.Maths being the exception. From a consistent failure to A1. Woohoo! I was ecstatic. =) I just hope either I can buck up on Geog/SS or I get to replace Geog/SS with Lit.

Other than prelims and results, been going around town too. For no specific reason, though most of the shops visited were shops selling prom dresses. But unfortunately, most of us only seem to know Daniel Yam. Limited knowledge about shops selling prom dresses equates to high possibility of wearing the same dress as someone else. So, I'm toying around with the idea of designing one myself. But, my drawing sucks so I can't put ideas down on paper. While taking a break from all the walking on Fri, Germaine bought a sour cream and onion pretzel from Antie Anne's. I always thought it would taste weird. I thought wrong. I got kind of addicted to it and dragged Sher to Suntec just to get the sour cream and onion pretzel. I don't know anyplace else that has an Auntie Anne's outlet la.

Airhead.

2005-09-09T23:58:00.000+08:00

Just now, during Lit, Ms Tang gave me a list of Term 4 events to put up in class on Monday. Since she was busy marking my essays, which I'm glad to mention I've improved in, I thought I glance through the list.

Guess where prom night will be held? The Hilton! =) Thank goodness. I feared it would have been held at say, the (cheaponana?) school hall or something.

Oh, The Perfect Catch is a nice movie. Well, it has to be, with Drew Barrymore(!!) and Jimmy Fallon. A typical sappy love story for hopeless romantics like me; one where I don't have to think much at all because somehow or the other, everything unfolds in a super coincidental manner (a bit like Shakespearean plays). Perfect. Since I'm told I look amazingly bimbotic, I might as well have the mind of a bimbo as well, right? Well, take a look inside my (air)head.

<----- This is what it looks like on good days, when I happen to be thinking productively. Gee, I wonder what it'd look like if I was spaced out.

I'd probably like, have this look on my face, ya know? Like, so totally "Du-uhh........"

On holiday! =)

2005-09-09T13:23:00.000+08:00

He bought food for us. Aawww.

Insomniac

2005-09-05T04:43:00.000+08:00

It's 4plus in the morning and I'm up trying to finish up Memoirs of a Geisha. Far from the ending but I needed a break cuz I felt a headache coming on. Came online and I found my dear h-band still awake. She's apparently hooked on some game.

I ran in the late evening just now. Well, if you'd actually consider it running since I stopped at every bridge in Pasir Ris park. The mangrove swamp place is open for business. Really, really boring place. There's nothing interesting to do or see, unless couples enjoying some alone time is what interests you.

Of late, I've been thinking that I should get a bicycle. The last time I rode on one regularly was in primary school. I was the geek who cylcled to school with the heavy backpack.

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Stupid keyboard's still giving me hell. I've had to resort to using the handwriting feature on MSN which looks something like this.

Plain ugly. And finger numbing since I'm using a laptop.

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Have you ever felt really terrible about a decision you made during the spur of the moment and you later regret it, but yet, you don't know what you can do to undo that foolish decision de

(At this point, my retarded keyboard managed to somehow shut down the laptop. Luckily, Blogger has that post retrieving function.)

...you don't know what you can do to undo that foolish decision despite knowing that that decision cost you a very dear friend. I don't have the faintest idea as to how I should approach that friend in an attempt to reconcile. Or perhaps it's just my own ego coming in the way. I'm not one who likes eating humble pie, not like the incident came up due to a fault of mine. We were both to blame, I guess. And since this happened a few months ago, it makes things even more awkward cuz we don't see each other much and with the months gone by, we're practically strangers.

As much as I'd like to elaborate, ~~I shouldn't air dirty laundry~~ the keyboard is testing my patience way too much.

The bus ride home..

2005-09-04T00:21:00.000+08:00

I can't stand Lit. I'm gonna die. Stupid subject. What was I thinking when I appealed for it?? 4 hours of hearing Mrs Neo droning on and on. Brought along a sketchbook and doodled and realised for the gazillionth time that I so don't have any idea whoatsoever as to how to draw in facial features. Was left with an angel who had no face. Sher thinks it looks better that way.

I went for my Chi today and I kept seeing barrels of burning hell money. Everywhere I turned, I saw incense, candles and ashes. Almost died of asphyxiation. I think today is what, end of the hungry ghost festival or something? There was a big celebration of some sort near my teacher's house and all the while I was being drilled with Chi words, I had the urge to just get up and go see the show cuz the music sure sounded damn good. I think it was a local band playing or something. Couldn't hear the lyrics clearly and I didn't recognise the tunes.

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Bedok was crawling with people cuz of the stupid pasar malam and I had to bloody hell wait for almost an hour for the damn bus. Was already starting to feel fucking pissed off cuz really, I admit, patience is a virtue that I do not have! While waiting, I saw an old cleaner woman burning a lot of God knows what and I quite liked the way the luminous flames flickered, giving rise to glowing embers that ascended like fireflies, temporarily twinkling against the night sky before disappearing into the darkness. So nice and so calming. I spaced out a bit and the next thing I know, huge ass pieces of dirty grey ashes are flying right at me. Such a lousy day.

And to make things worse, a stop after I boarded the bus, a big group of mats came on board. Uh oh. I knew I shouldn't have sat at the back. Big groups make me uncomfortable. Later right, a girl about 15 I think got on board and stood, her side facing the mats and she was wearing super short shorts. The fellas thought it'd be amusing to take pictures of the unsuspecting girl. What an abuse of cameraphones. Very funny is it, to mentally outrage the girl's modesty with your filthy imaginations for the sake of your entertainment?

Speaking of entertainment, I want to go see Quidam!

Anyway, the poor girl must have known something was up when they kept laughing and looking back and forth at the phone screen and her cuz she soon started (un)consciously tugging at her mini shorts.

I bet you this kind of behaviour only happens when the mats are in big groups. It's natural, I guess, to be more daring when you're surrounded by your friends. Safety in numbers.

Like one time, a few years back, I was on the way home from Changi Village with Aqil and I was having trouble getting into a comfortable position cuz SBS buses never seem to have enough leg room so unintentionally, my knees pushed against the seat in front. The idiot sitting in front turned around and with his beady eyes and ah beng accent, SHOUTED at me to stop pushing. Later, after I got off, Aqil told me Musa and the rest of the guys got on and the stupid ah beng's friends got off. They purposely pushed the seat and the idiot just kept mum, unlike before. See what I mean?

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Yesterday, some arsehole male chauvinistic pig wrote into Today suggesting that polygamy be legalised to stem rising divorce rates. Such a typical male view! It's marriage, dude. YOU fell in love with her. YOU courted her. YOU proposed to her. YOU took your vows with her to be with each other till death do you part. Just simply keep your dick in your pants and don't screw other women! Is that so hard? Besides, doctors have reported that it's the men who aren't pleasing their wives. YOU can't even satify one woman and YOU want several women?! tsktsk. If I were related to the guy in any little way at all, I'd slap him silly for even thinking of such a stupid "solution".

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I'm just feeling so in a mood swing today. I, of all people, didn't feel like walking in the rain. And it's one of those days when I feel like a blob of fat. I stepped out of the shower and I think my thighs have grown to epic proportions. Blahh.

So many "I"s in my posts, don't you think?

2005-09-01T12:48:00.000+08:00

You know how some people have very messy rooms (and I mean very messy) and they argue that it's an organised mess cuz they still can find what they're looking for?

Well, I'm one of them.

My mum had leave the other day and she went and rearranged stuff in my room to make it neater. Now, I can't find anything!

Prelims? Go eat shit and die.

2005-08-31T20:53:00.000+08:00

As you can tell, I'm so loving the prelims. I love having to mug till late at night just to get some random information into my thick skull even though that information will be totally useless in the working world in future. And there's still a lot more papers to go. Blah la. Interestingly, wrote about blogging for my Chi compo. It was more of translated as "diary on the internet". Same thing la. As for every other subject so far.. eurgh. At least I finally have time to update.

Nothing going on lately. I lead a super boring life. And my stupid keyboard is acting up. Damn thing somehow selects windows which I didn't select so every few words I type, I'm cut off. It's taking too much effort. So.. random photos then. I love the solarisation effect.

Rockstar INXS is on. I love. =)

I can't dance for nuts!

2005-08-26T16:39:00.000+08:00

Because I have horrible two left feet which I already knew about but on impulse, I still went ahead with Lati, Syid and Ren to get up on stage to embarrass ourselves in front of the whole school. Haha. =) It was fun, though. We had the logic that even if we were to be teased afterwards, it's already our last year of school and there's only a few months left so it's alright.

I was surprised when we got on the stage, Aqil stood up from the crowd and walked up as well. And so did Shairul! Aawww..

School's been lousy the past three days. Practical, practical, practical. Not confident about them at all and prelims start next week. And yet, I still procrastinate and get nothing done.

I was let on to some financial matters of the household. It really hurt to hear that my grandma was wailing over the phone because she didn't wanna take her medications because they're expensive and she doesn't want to burden my parents. She's such a sweet old lady and she was the one who took care of me till I came to Sg since both my parents were always at work. I'm very attached to her and just hearing that, I cried and I had to leave the room. Then thinking about it, I feel guilty. I never really thought about the fact that my parents sort of support my youngest aunt and grandmother and they still let me spend as I wish.

I'm supposed to meet up with my tuition teacher, Zabid and Shairul later to catch The Maid. It'd be a hell of a time because the two boys together are really a riot. But I don't feel like going.. I feel like I'd be intruding, though it's really sweet they included me as well.

Kaleidoscope

2005-08-21T13:53:00.000+08:00

Before the show. Syid, me, Lati, Sher, Ren.

Woah. Super coincidental but we look so colour-coded! Ew. Haha.

So, the school drama night whent alright. =) I don't think people went for the plays la. They were after all mediocre. What most people went for was to dress up, look pretty and take lots of pictures! Haha. Nadiah came with Farid and she looked hot. In fact, a lot of people looked hot. Elroy was saying this year, people really bothered to dress up, compared to 2003. The best dressed female missed a step after getting her prize and the whole theatre erupted in laughter. Evil people. And the best dressed male was dressed up like Michael Jackson! So cute, right. With the exact same type of shoes as well.

During the interval..

Elroy, Lati, Sher, Nis, Ren, me, Aqil.

Lovely smiles!

The the show ended and we were outside trying to decide where to go and eat.. Syid and Shai went home. Meanwhile, what else to do but take more pictures!

Same people plus Nadiah! =)

As we were walking, this retarded girl suddenly grabbed me.

Caught the coww with Zenn so we had to steal her for a while.

Every few steps we took, we'd come a across a nice spot and one of us would go, "Eh, nice spot! Take picture, take picture!"

Netballers.

Lati, Sher, Ren, Aqil and I walked some more, still not yet able to decide where to eat. And finally, after much persuasion on Ren's part, we went to Marche at Suntec. Of course, all we had was Roesti.

Wanna-be waitress.

Pretty green eyes!

By the time we left, the doors were all locked and we had to go though the pub plus walk all the way to the MRT.

Final shot..

Sher, Aqil and I got off at Pasir Ris. And Sher did something to really convince me of the bimbotism. Hahaa. Retarded girl la, she. She insisted on taking a cab back though she lived like 5 mintues away from the MRT. So we were having a hard time getting a cab. Then when we finally saw one, it jus drove past us. Aqil and I stared at Sher. The conversation that followed went something like this..

"Eh, why didn't you take that cab?"

"Stupid driver just drove past, what.."

"Well, you're supposed to flag the cab!"

In Benglish please

2005-08-17T17:52:00.000+08:00

I love reading Kenny Sia and he came up with a Beng-ifier that turns blogs into typical Beng/Lian ones.. It's damn funny! Haha. Try it. =)

Click.

Aargh!!

2005-08-17T17:34:00.000+08:00

I'm extremely annoyed by Ms Lim. Stupid lousy teacher. She not only somehow manages to turn such a fun subject like Bio into a boring fucked up period that turns into a waste of time, but she's also very disorganised. I think it was quite obvious all along that from the way she goes through questions, we'd never complete going through everything. She only realises it now and expects everyone to turn up for extra lesson she wants to hold. I wouldn't have minded la, if she actually bothered to come to class to arrange it herself! If she's not there, then how are we supposed to decide on when would be a good day to have that extra lesson? Instead, she asks some classmates of mine [one who does a lousy Elvis impersonation] to do so and they can't tell us when Ms Lim is free. And the whole class can't seem to ever agree either. There's always somebody whining away. Be more flexible la, can? You don't like that day/time the lesson is arranged to be on, but you don't want to miss the lesson either, so you gotta make the rest of the class come on some other day/time which is more convenient for you? If Mrs Lim isn't willing to change tomorrow's Add Maths lesson to Friday, I'll really die tomorrow. School, Add Maths, Bio and then tuition at night again. Then, that would leave no time to study for Friday's Chem test.

Next week is already the Prelim practicals. I'm dreading Bio. Ever since Mrs Sim left last year, I haven't acquired any new information from Ms Lim. It's been self-study all the way. And her stupid tests? Are just that, stupid. All they test is whether you've got a photographic memory, not whether you understand what you've learnt. And somehow, Bio practical seems to be so much more of a theory paper. Shit la.

Damien Hirst

2005-08-15T16:39:00.000+08:00

I went for another Mobius meeting again. This time to discuss about our proposals for the Duality exhibition. Stupid Elroy disappeared with my mediocre sketches so I had to improvise and try to put my idea across. Rui Long seems uninterested in doing this with Elroy and I, probably because the last time we teamed up, the two of them didn't really see eye to eye.

What was really interesting, however, was one of Fauzi's ideas. He talked about wanting to use resin to preserve half a flower. The other half would be left to wilt. It would then show life and death simultaneously, maybe more like death and preservation. One co-existing with another. We brainstormed on how we could carry it out if we didn't use resin. We came up with white glue because when it dries, it becomes transparent and it just so happens that the art room always has white glue easily available. Just experimenting but a flower is submerged in white glue in the art room now. Hopefully by Monday, the next meeting, it'll be dried and ready.

Apparently, Fauzi got the idea from an artist called Damien Hirst. One of his most famous works from 1991, in an exhibition titled "The Physical Impossibility of Death in the Mind of Someone Living", is this..

Such a sick yet ingenius idea. He filled a glass tank with formaldehyde, which is used for embalming to preserve a dead body, and submerged the carcass of a tiger shark in it. Impressive installation.

Another sick one is sort of worked on the theme of that nursery rhyme or something. "This little piggy went to the market.. This little piggy stayed home". So the guy cut a real piglet in half and put the two halves on display. One half, you could see the internal organs (went to the market?), the other you just see the pig (stayed at home). Clever, but gross.

Fauzi also mentioned one about where Damien Hirst used real maggots in one side of the container. The maggots were allowed to grow. But on the other side of the container, he placed a fly zapper. So you could guess what happens? Interesting way to demonstrate life and death. But the guy comes across as one who's cruel to animals doesn't he?

Well, I came home and google-d for Damien Hirst and tried to find out more about him. Though he paints really well..

"Autopsy with sliced Human Brain" - 2004

It's still morbid.

It seems his most famous works are all dead animals preserved in glass tanks of formaldehyde. Animals stuck in death.

And oh, billionairse Steve Cohen bought that tiger shark in formaldehyde for an estimated US$8 million.

But ironically, while trying to preserve the installations in formaldehyde, it seems that the carcasses are still decomposing.

Interview with Damien Hirst.

Grinning from ear to ear. =)

2005-08-12T21:59:00.000+08:00

It's been a great day. I didn't get that big fat F I dreamt of. Haha. Am so damn relieved.

Instead, I got a B3. I'm so glad. =)

I swore I wouldn't take the paper again if I got B3 or better, but now that the results are out, I'm thinking it's such a waste. Who knows how far from that distinction I was. Back to the Chinese books. My parents are happy. Haha.

And I've got an interesting book to read. Byron, a.k.a the [supposed] kind soul [with the gay vibes] finally got around to lending me a book. Thanks!

Teenage Woes

2005-08-11T18:40:00.000+08:00

Over the weekend, it seems I suddenly got a pimple outbreak. A hugely obvious one and lots of miniscule bright red ones sprinkled all over the forehead. Bloody hell. It's damn annoying. I feel so self conscious now! No wonder people are willing to pay thousands for plastic surgery and whatnot.

The worse thing is, I got harassed on the way back home. Not about the pimples but their existence was a definite blow to my self-esteem. Some guys thought it'd be interesting to question me endlessly. I kept my mouth shut but I was quite surprised. They tried to guess my race/nationality and asked from Chinese to Malay to Indonesian. What surprised me was that one of them guessed Nepal. Haha. I couldn't help but smile la. Cuz half the people I meet and even talk to don't even know Nepal exists.

Anyway. I had butterflies in my stomach towards the end of the school day. That awful feeling of trepidation. When we got to the hall, I almost immediately started freezing. And you know how it goes when the room's cold. Couldn't tell if I wanted to pee or not. Haha. Kind of nerve wrecking because Hanif talked for so long. Besides, the examiners looked.. unfriendly, to put it nicely.

I walked up to them. And they maintained their aura of nonchalance. Of course. What would it matter to them if I did well or not. It's not like I'm even their student or what. What was really annoying was the female invigilator. She bloody hell just sat there and was totally tuned out. She kept looking away, her eyes wandering to God knows where. There I was, racking my brains for some intelligent deductions I could come up with to impress them, and there's the invigilator, probably wishing she was anywhere but there. What's wrong with you?! I'm trying to impress you, right? At least maintain eye contact or what so I know I'm doing alright. And I was only the 3rd candidate, meaning she should've been in quite a good mood still. If that's her good mood, I'd hate to have been the last candidate.

Other than the not-at-all nice invigilator, I think everything else went quite well. Or at least as well as it could have gone. Thankfully, I didn't find myself at a loss for words and was very satisfied. =)

When I got out of the hall, Haryanto, Louise, Sean and Rui Long were waiting outside, apparently discussing how hard the oral was. Haha. They were absolutely apalled that I was happy with it and came out of the hall smiling ear to ear. Ha! But.. you never know. Blame it on bad luck but sometimes.. sometimes right.. you'll feel so happy and confident about something. But when you turn around. It just blows up in your face. For all I know, in the eyes of the invigilators, I might have sucked real bad because come to think of it, I think my facts were totally off.

Nevermind. It's over and there's nothing I can do about it. Just like how I can't do anything to change the upcoming Chi results. Tomorrow. Darn it. I'm more nervous about the results than anything else. It doesn't mean much to me, but it means a lot to my parents and granddad.

2005-08-10T19:12:00.000+08:00

I dreamt we got back the results for the O lvl MT.

I got a big fat bright red F

National Day

2005-08-09T23:32:00.000+08:00

No offense, but to me, it obviously doesn't mean much.

When National Day comes around, it seems suddenly everyone is proudly displaying his/her patriotism. You know how in Geog, we learn about the preservation of culture for tourism sake brings about pseudo-culture? I think to a certain extent, it applies here as well. Pseudo-patriotism. After all, it's like one of those things you do because it's the "right" thing to do. You're supposed to be patriotic, so be patriotic lor. But I shan't dwell too much here.

The school gave us souvenirs for National Day. A box of chocolates, which I don't mind. But what takes the cake? A can of baked beans. Like hello? Where is the connection here? Haha. And then come to think of it, the chocolates were also leftovers from the Racial Harmony Day Bazaar, I think. I heard someone talking about buying Guylian chocolates on that day. Ren suggested that Nabil send the baked beans to charity or something. Such a kind soul, eh.

Wait. Speaking of kind souls. The kind soul who was supposed to lend me Memoirs of a Geisha and some other book. What happened, huh?

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Dined at Fish & Co. I'd never eaten there before so I convinced Aqil to give it a try.

Aqil got quite a big portion.. But it was too well done for my taste and there wasn't enough sambal on the sambal fish.

I digress a bit here but doesn't the remains above remind you of a Pri school thing when for Science, we had to do those "I am a ...." thingies. Once, I forced my family to eat fried fish for days because I wanted to get 3 stars for getting a fish skeleton so that it'd help me get the "I am a Zoologist" badge. Haha.

Notice I didn't mention my own order? It was terrible. The Fish & Co. fish has that annoying fishy taste la. Ironic a bit. But it means they just fry the fish like that. Without additional whatever to remove that fishy taste. And I hate that. If my Mum makes fish, she'll add ginger to take away that fishy taste and her cooking is awesome. Maybe seafood is just not my thing.

We were sitting by the beach later when something caught my eye.

It was dark, and few people were around. And in the shadows, quite a distance away, was another couple. The movements of the silhouettes which indicated the gyrating of hips was quite incriminating. Hmm..

Great

2005-08-08T15:09:00.000+08:00

Now the stupid flip flops look.. well, kinda stupid. Haha. Nevermind. It'll wear out soon enough.

Okay, time to study. I shan't procrastinate any furthur.

I am a Genius

2005-08-06T23:49:00.000+08:00

There's a Bio test on Monday and I took home my subject textbooks. All except Bio.

Brilliant, aren't I?

Speech Day and some Retail Therapy. =)

2005-08-06T23:41:00.000+08:00

I was pissed today. More like annoyed actually.

First off, stupid Speech Day. I made a real effort to get down there on time at bloody 8.15am, okay? Only half the class came and those of us who did come had to wait until 9am when it turns out the event was scheduled to start. 4A got seated right at the back of the hall. I couldn't see anything, which wasn't half bad cuz there was nothing to see anyway.

The 2004 batch came back to recieve their prizes. I want to be one of them next year. I want to go back to Dmn in my school blazer and recieve a certificate for achieving 7A1s. =)

Lunched with Raihanis, Rashida and Shereen. They're really a fun bunch of people la. =) Laughed lots and then later, went and tried those formal shirts which I later bought and wore.

Since the beginning of the week, I'd been planning to head down to the Marina Bay that area to catch the firworks display tonight. I thought we could go to the mall beside Marina Mandarin (Marina Square, I think. Not too sure what it's called.) and watch the firworks while getting dinner. Cuz that place has a food court with outdoor seating that overlooks the Esplanade and all. Syid and I stumbled upon it a while back after training at Kallang.

But. Great minds think alike. I was peeved to find that the food court was bloody packed. I mean I should have expected it la, since the first level was already packed when normally, it's deserted. But I had to keep my hopes up, right? Gave up looking for a place to sit immediately and thought perhaps we'd have better luck at the Esplanade theatre itself.

But. Fools seldom differ. The tunnel to the Esplanade was jam packed and the lobby was worse. We hate crowds so we left.

Bloody hell. Cannot see the fireworks. And I was so looking forward to it.

Thank goodness for retail therapy then! =) It's sheer genius to come up with something like shopping to uplift peoples' moods. So between Aqil and I, I think we spent more than 250 bucks. I haven't felt so happy shopping in a long time, which is great too, with the Prelims nearing. And I intend on shopping on either Monday, Tuesday or Wednesday as well. =)

One of my purchases. Haha. I liked the Mat appeal the moment I saw it. =)

Sec 4A, 2005

2005-08-04T22:44:00.000+08:00

Love the class pic, though this one's blurred at some parts. Now if only that stupid Firdaus hadn't been so extra.

Conjunctivitis..

2005-08-03T21:26:00.000+08:00

It's contagious, right?

Aqil has it. Probably because he's the only person I know who doesn't take off his contact lenses for the whole month! Crazy, right? Everyone else cleans almost every night, including yours truly. See what happens when laziness gets to you? No wonder get conjunctivitis. Tsktsk. I accompanied him to the doctor, who happens to be his granduncle. 2 days MC.

2 days? I get a stupid fever and my doctor doesn't even give me MC unless I ask.

Anyway, him getting conjunctivitis means he can't wear contacts and must either fix his spectacles or buy new ones. I like him in spectacles. He looks better. =)

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I should be studying for Physics. But I'm just too distracted.

The prelim time-table is out. I think it's quite dumb that half the papers are before the term break, and half after. It's such a stupid arrangement! I wouldn't have minded if SS and Geog were after the term break. Then, I'd be rejoicing. Stupid school. This means I can't take my guitars back from Musa. Otherwise, it'd be degradatory to my results.

Nail biting.. A little help here?

2005-08-02T17:48:00.000+08:00

I admit, I'm a nail biter. It isn't something most people don't know about. I'm just annoyed that I can't stop biting my nails. It's an addiction.

I don't bite nails when I'm nervous or whatever, I just bite when I'm too engrossed in something. I'm a habitual biter. Conditioned reflex, if you like. Like when I read Harry Potter. My poor nails had just grown and within two days, they were reduced to almost nothing once again.

Or sometimes, the nails just feel uneven and being the perfectionist that I sometimes am, I just can't resist. It's like this stupid story I once heard. A monkey wants to share a banana with a friend. He breaks the banana in two but the pieces are uneven. To even them out, he bites the longer piece. Now the longer piece is shorter. So he bites the other piece. Now the shorter piece that became longer is again shorter than the other piece. And it just goes on, and the monkey ends up eating the banana all by himself. That's about roughly what happens when I bite my nails.

My parents and other family members have always hated this bad habit of mine. It must be hereditary. I have at least two other cousins who bite their nails too. And over the years, found friends who bite as well.

Everytime I bite my nails, my Dad smacks me. Everytime I bite my nails, Madhu tsks. Everytime I bite my nails, Aqil whacks my hand and then flicks his fingers at my fingers. You know how some people can just flick the fingers at your skin and it'll hurt. Like that la. Pain, you know?

Anyway, the problem here is I can't stop biting my nails. Even though I've tried like, a million times to stop. I remember there was once a talk in the AVT where the speaker talked about habits. "Habit". You take away the H, you're still left with "A Bit". When you take away the A, you're left with "Bit". You take away the B, you'll still have "It". Ahh. Sure explains why I haven't been able to stop.

I need to solve this problem. But the question is.. HOW?

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I got great marks for a Geog test. =) I had to mention it.. Because it's probably never gonna happen ever, ever again.

Mobius Meeting

2005-08-01T16:46:00.000+08:00

Today, there was a Mobius meeting after like, forever.

Apparently Fauzi is having his exhibition soon, not sure when. It will be Mobius' second exhibition.. The theme is "duality". He asked us to do any type of art piece individually or in groups. Next Monday, he'll be in Dmn again and we're supposed to give him our ideas. This way, Fauzi can then find a place big enough to fit our work and of course, his own as well.

It's a flexible project. I like. Though I haven't really started brain-storming for ideas. I was thinking of doing something about emotions, or just colours. The "duality" theme needs to show in the workpiece. Elroy has already asked if we sec4s wanted to do a huge piece together. Might not be so bad. =)

And to continue our efforts to raise funds for the unknown artists, we're selling shirts! Clar, remember to take your shirts from me.

That's the design, plain and simple. I think it's the national day shirt or something. I didn't get the "I am a cub!" slogan at first. Don't think many of us did. We asked Juansa why "cub". Then Ju and Fauzi explained.. Singapore, the lion city. Therefore the use of cub. Whatever. Haha. If anyone is interested, look for any Mobius persons. $12 per tee.

Tag Me

2005-08-01T16:02:00.000+08:00

Sick of tag-board always being down.

You learn something new everyday.

2005-07-31T17:41:00.000+08:00

Did you know that the word is anti-climactic, not anti-climatic? Anti-climactic would be a description of an anti-climax while anti-climatic would mean one is against the weather.

Renegades

2005-07-30T20:41:00.000+08:00

I finally went back for Renegades' training with Ren.

We MRT-ed to Kallang with Yen Wei. She was late for a beep test. Probably for her umpiring. Ren and I were at the normal bus stop to Kallang. And nobody, not even Yen Wei who suddenly went the other way, told us the stupid road was closed! Had to walk all the way to the other bus stop to get to KNC.

Under 17s were there and soon, we started the game. Played carnival style 7min swaps first. I'm no longer a shooter la. Sadded. Kept playing midfield only. But it's alright, I suppose. Not like I can even shoot anymore. Haha. So long never practise shooting. The whole thing was for fun. Coach let us play any position we wanted.

It felt good to finally do some real exercise after being out of action for a few months.

Had to go home alone since the rest of them were taking 31. It started raining torrentially. The water running down the bus windows distorted the scenery.

Took some random pictures.. The guy sitting in front of me was doing the same too. I wanna take up photography. Someday, perhaps. There never seems to be enough time to do everything.

Tomorrow it's time to study, study, study. Prelims are just around the corner.

Celebration

2005-07-29T20:57:00.000+08:00

So, finally Dmn celebrated Racial Harmony Day. Even the taxi driver was commenting that Dmn's probably the last to celebrate.

It started off with a boring speech by Mrs Neo. She talked about Hitler, Nazis and the Holocaust. She said it was because of the recent incident about some kids pretending to be Hitler or something like that. But maybe it's because she was the one who was really offended. She's Jewish after all. Or if she isn't, someone in her family is. Then, there was the Student Council President Election. Utter rubbish because I doubt the student body can be bothered who's the next president of Council. I said that out a bit too loud. The councillor next to me looked at me funny.

Before the Bazaar started, we were all clamouring around, taking pictures.

Me and Melati.

Shereen and I.

Melati, Elroy and I.
Malay, Chinese, Indian. Equates to Racial Harmony!

Aiyar. The pictures look disfigured because I made them smaller..

Syid, Me, Seanie Baby, Daryl and Lea Yee.

[Edit: Daryl took offense that I always comment on him looking retarded. Hah. So Daryl isn't retarded. He's one of the most good looking guys in my class. Really. =) ]

I didn't manage to get the class pic though. I don't even know who has the picture. And we didn't manage to take a family pic. Just the Retarded Child and I.

Hot babes. =)

And suddenly, Ren, Syid, Zahirah, Sarah, Wei Jin, Rui Long, Guo Jun and I were rushing to the porch to start the Racial Harmony Race. Haha. I really regret wearing heels la. Within a few minutes, my feet were starting to hurt.

Running, running, running and more running. In heels! Ren was hurting too.

But we were having fun. We made the shiny things you see decorating Malay (under the block) weddings and dumplings. And helped apply Henna too. But before we were even halfway through the whole thing, 4C finished first. After that, we just split up and slacked.

Eirene's wonderful massage.

Dear Juniors.

Raihanis, Me, Wei Jin, Sarah, Ren, Syid.

Me and Sher again.

When I got home later, my feet were bloody aching! And got blisters on both feet. Haha. It's the fisrt bazaar I went starving. I was scared to eat too much. It sucked. Didn't see any interesting stalls at all.

Chem test was cancelled afterwards so just went back to school for the CCA award rehearsal. Total waste of time. Go school for an hour to go on stage, act like you're recieving something, and go to a marked spot to bow.

Seanie Baby..

2005-07-28T19:45:00.000+08:00

New link.

Mini Shopping

2005-07-26T18:21:00.000+08:00

I just read finish the last chapter of Harry Potter. OMG, I cried so much. I was fine until the characters started recounting the whole night leading to the death. Now, just gonna wait for the next book to come out.

After school Ren and I headed down to TM. She wanted to get heels to match the cheongsam she borrowed for Racial Harmony Day.

Dmn is damn slow la. I think we're probably the last school to celebrate it or something. As far as I know, all other schools celebrated it last week. This year, we've got a Bazaar too. To make up for the one we missed on Youth Day, I guess. I still haven't gotten something to wear yet. I'm supposed to borrow Ren's lengha but then now she says her mum might not let her let me borrow it because it's expensive. Understandable. It is expensive. Much cheaper to custom-make one in Nepal than to buy a ready-made one here in Sg. The thing is either I get it and wear some tummy revealing lengha or I have no costume to wear. No costume to wear certainaly won't do. It's the last year in Dmn!

Back to shopping.. Ren found her heels within like 5 minutes and she bought it on the spot. We then started walking around.. looking for a handbag. And who should we bump into at Metro? Ren's parents. Hilarious. Her mum didn't seem too happy seeing her daughter shopping without telling her. And while her mum questioned her about what she was up to, her father kept trying to tell her he bought apple strudle for her. So adorable! He kept smiling so wide. No wonder Ren smile also the same. Haha.

Later on, at Century, we bumped into Coach! =) She started nagging about why we weren't at home studying, blah blah, same old, same old. Haha. She insisted on seeing Ren's purchase and was quite shocked. I mean, I would be too. If I wasn't close to her, It'd never cross my mind that she'd be so girly. As the three of us were going down the escalator, some Malays just cut our path and got on the escalator first, Coach was pretty pissed. Started talking loudly about their rudeness. They didn't seem to care though.

Finally slipped away and after much goading from Ren, I got myself a handbag. Mann. I've had to keep telling myself that I won't regret it because it was just an impulse buy and it wasn't that expensive anyways. Hah. Right. I need to go off. Try to squeeze in studying for tomorrow's Physics test before I need to get ready to head for tuition.

Childhood Memories

2005-07-22T21:52:00.000+08:00

Thank you, Praba! And Clariee. =) Yay. Now I can finally go and read Harry Potter. I don't care if reading off the computer screen is gonna spoil my eyes. They're already spolit, anyway.

byrOn: Of course I'm disappointed la. I didn't expect them to be squealers. I'm sure you didn't either.

It's Aqil's birthday! I would find some nice image and put it up la. But he doesn't like to read my blog anyway. =/ Or so he says? Haha. I spent a lot of time yesterday making a card for him. It's the best I could do, since I couldn't think of what to buy. And a nice cake. I wanna learn to bake like Karen! =)

It's been raining a lot lately. And the area around my house generally seems to be a breeding ground for slugs. Gross slimey little things. The thing is right, after it rains, they come out of hiding and start crawling around the pavement. Of course, humans, the dominant species, will inevitably squish those little critters by accident. As testament to the fact, the pavement is "decorated" with an occasional slug or two, be it still alive and crawling, or squashed flat. So, every morning, as I walk uphill to the 29 bus stop, I try to avoid stepping on one. That's beside the point. Today I noticed that after a few days, those slugs that were squashed previously, are now permanent decorations on the sidewalk.

It reminded me of my not too long ago childhood in Nepal. We have the four seasons, somewhat. And during June, it's always the monsoon season. We've even had floods and my family lives in the city, darn it! Imagine if I lived in those hilly, mountainous regions [which Ren thought I did. She was shocked to hear we actually have computers and such in Nepal.]. So relating to the previous paragraph, more rain equates to a rise in the number of slimy looking slugs suddenly appearing. Except I don't know if they should be called slugs because they were more like snails really. Unlike the ones I see in Sg, they're kinda large, with that eyes sticking out. But they didn't have any shells. But anyway, the thing is, when these little things start to colonise our garden and driveway, my aunt would encourage my cousins and I to murder them.

Haha.. we could always find these snails/slugs because they left a slimy disgusting trail behind. And when we did find one, we'd run to the house and come back with salt. By sprinkling a few pinches of salt onto the snail/slug, it would seem to speed up and try to escape. At the same time, its usually colourless slimy trail would become whitish and thicker, almost as if it was disappearing. Thinking back, i find it quite interesting because come to think of it, we wouldn't find the snail/slug later when we came back. Did it just get melted away or something? Haha. If it really did melt away, which seems theoretically impossible, then every monsoon season of mine in Nepal was quite sadistic.

But there were times when nature got back at me. I loved going to my cousins' house. though we lived near the city centre, their house was further to the outskirts. The place used to be kinda ulu with houses few and far between. It's near the side of a cliff. Walk a few minutes, we would reach some terraced cliff side. We were always told it was dangerous but being naughty little kids, we'd somehow find a way to climb down the cliff to get to the river. Kids from the village at the valley would bathe in the river, even during winter, when the waters could be freezing cold, but not quite frozen.

Halfway down the cliff, there's a dirt road and it's usually full of potholes. Needless to say, during the monsoon season, random puddles of water were a common sight at the place. My cousins and I would play around there, exploring the area. There was this concrete kind of platform from where you could see the whole valley. It was just simple innocent fun.

After splashing around in all the puddles all, I would happily trudge home through the muddy roads by myself in yellow rubber boots [think PCK]. More often than not, each time I got home, took off my boots and rolled up my pants, there would be a few suckers. Literally. A few leeches always somehow manage to get into my boots and start sucking the life out of me. Annoyingly, you really won't feel the suckers because their saliva contains an anaesthesia that will cause a loss of sensation where the leech intends to bite. My grandmother would then start nagging about how many times she told me not to play in the water. It's dirty la.. You'll fall sick la. And of course, leeches. She would then strip me down to make sure there weren't leeches on the rest of my body. After which, she'd take out a matchbox, strike a match and start burning the leeches off one by one.

Pretty interesting childhood if I do say so myself. There's still more stories. But I think I've wrote enough. I intend on sleeping early tonight and plan to study over the weekend. Edwin's coming over though. On his way now, I think. Like that, the weekend surely go out one.

2005-07-21T16:04:00.000+08:00

Sickening. Everywhere I go, somehow I always end up hearing/reading about Dumbledore being killed by Snape. It's just making me itch to get my hands on the darn book.

Anyway, had Prelim Oral. Ms Poh isn't that scary. I don't understand why ppl were panicking when they saw her come to our class. She's definitely a whole lot less intimidating than Ms Yew. On Wednesday, there was a little incident. The Indons were pin-pointed straight away for not bringing an A3 sketch pad. To defend themselves, they went on and questioned why they were the only ones being kicked out of the lesson when there were others who didn't bring the sketch pad either. Now Ms Poh couldn't jolly well ask them to shut up and leave because then, she would be labelled biased. By asking, "Who?" she made matters worse. The Indon boys, minus Samuel, started telling on others.

I was quite shocked. All the while, I always thought of them as good friends you could rely on because they seem so sincere about their concern for others. I didn't think they would actually tattle on others. Hearing the names, Ms Poh really didn't have much of a choice but to throw out every one without the sketch pad then. Honestly, I was quite disappointed in the boys.

That aside, nothing much going on lately. I lead an extremely boring life. I hate Thursdays. At first I loved it, because the new timetable gives us 6 periods of practicals today. Now, I hate it. It's just too much practicals. Chemistry today was quite bad. During the QA part of the paper, we needed to test some solid with conc. hydrochloric acid. Really terrible, I tell you. I think most of the class thing the same part around the same time. As a result, ppl in the room were choking from the Chlorine gas. Still feeling kind of sick since then and the gas leaves an unpleasant feelings in the throat.

I suck at getting birthday presents. How?

2005-07-16T22:00:00.000+08:00

"Eh, Singhcolourapa?" Haha. I got quite a kick outta that question. And it seems it isn't just the Malay guys who play that game.

Aqil and I were dining at Swensens. One of the waitresses was carrying a tray with a some glasses of water and she happened to be serving a table where there was a cheeky toddler. The kid went and pulled the tray, so obviously, water was spilt la. Unfortunately, even after the place was mopped, some poor waiter walked past the area and slipped and fell on his ass. Haha..I didn't mean to be rude, but it was quite funny to see him get up and walk away, rubbing his ass and looking slightly dazed.

Harry Potter and the Half-blood Prince is out. I wanna read it. But I'm not one of those to spend money on books. Parents should encourage their kids to buy books, right? Well, mine don't. Ironically, they would rather I spend the money on clothes or something. They know me too well - I would just devour the book within a few days, tops, and it would be left gathering dust. So, I must wait.. wait for some kind soul to lend me HP after letting me borrow Memoirs of a Geisha. Right? =)

Oh, yes. Chinese is finally over. Now, I'll just wait for the results and hope that I get at least a B3 so I won't have to re-take it.

Would you look at that.. Element: Air - Mental.

Mental?? Honestly, the first thought that came to my mind was like, "mentally unstable" or something.

But I'd say 80% of the qualities are predicted correctly. Sometimes, I think I do believe in horoscopes. Maybe our date of birth does predict our characteristics. Besides, sometimes, what the horoscope predicts is really too much of a coincidence to be coincidental.

2005-07-15T21:17:00.000+08:00

You scored as agnosticism. You are an agnostic. Though it is generally taken that agnostics neither believe nor disbelieve in God, it is possible to be a theist or atheist in addition to an agnostic. Agnostics don't believe it is possible to prove the existence of God (nor lack thereof).

Agnosticism is a philosophy that God's existence cannot be proven. Some say it is possible to be agnostic and follow a religion; however, one cannot be a devout believer if he or she does not truly believe.

Buddhism

67%

Islam

67%

agnosticism

67%

atheism

54%

Hinduism

54%

Satanism

54%

Paganism

50%

Judaism

50%

Christianity

38%

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2005-07-15T13:10:00.000+08:00

Came home immediately after school today cause there's so much time before the listening compre. I had nowhere else to go. (Sidetrack a bit. I remember when I was about 5 I think, I was reading The Ugly Duckling and there was this one line, "He had nowhere to go." For the longest time, I just couldn't figure out where the hell was now-here.) Ren didn't wanna let me go to her house. Paranoid girl. She says her mother will just suck up to me with her fake accent and pretend to be the perfect mother. Haha.. righht.

I've got a craving for chocolate!! I love all kinds of chocolate - dark, milk, white. Mmm.. =) The best combination is chocolate and macadamia nuts. The worst? Rum raisin. It's not the rum that bothers me. It's just weird to be having raisins with chocolate. I wouldn't mind chocolate-coated strawberries, though. Melted chocolate, too..yum.

The Oprah show is on. I used to hate it when I was young. In fact, I hated most talk shows. How could these people just sit and listen to some boring interview? And then I grew up. It's quite interesting. Haha..from interviews with celebrities to interviews with professionals on the importance of the right bra size. And I no longer hate The Nanny. Fran with her nasal voice and Niles' sarcasm. I finally understand all the jokes! In fact, nowadays I need my dosage of The Nanny every weekday.

Bloody hell. I practised so much A maths and yet I found today's test hard. I wasn't sure of a single answer.. save for the one on proving identities. It's quite depressing. Like that, then O Level how? I'm quite worried about the Os. I doubt I'll be prepared. I don't really care much for my studies. Only when I get back horrible results, I start chiding myself. By then, it's too late.

Anyway, there was some Interact Club instillation/investiture, whatever. Oh wow, they're sooooo talented. Right. Every year when the Interact investiture takes place, I shudder to think that I was in that club! Who knows how I might have turned out if I didn't quit. Syida too. I don't have anything against those girls cause how they choose to dress and behave is their prerogative. But can you imagine Syida and I as typical minahs, tight shirt, short skirts, "strutting our stuff"? Haha.. We just don't cut it.

2005-07-14T18:07:00.000+08:00

How adorable is it that my Dad is watching Kim Possible with me! =)

I haven't been reading the newspaper lately because I always seem to be lacking in free time. Okay, I lie. Maybe it's because I actually don't really read the newspaper at all, though comics are part of the newspaper, right? Why bother to read the depressing news when the media broadcasts the same depressing news in the mornings and nights anyway.

I mean, I'm not saying I don't like to read. Quite the contrary actually. (Which reminded me, Byron has yet to lend me Memoirs of a Geisha.) Oh, speaking of which, Geisha isn't a Japanese prostitute! A geisha is just a Japanese entertainer. I suppose we can't say entertainment doesn't come in sexual forms, though.

Geisha? haha..Yeah, righhht. Btw, those aren't pimples! I'm not plagued by acne, thank god.

I digress. But there is no objective in this post, anyway. I'm really, really bored and I just feel like typing so I can waste away before going to tuition and have another A Maths test. I'm seriously so sick of A Maths. I tell you, the tuition and all the practise really better pay off. I'm sick of failing it. It's the only bloody subject which pulls me down so badly. Even Chinese doesn't affect me that much. Besides, Chinese O Level is practically over, excluding tomorrow's Listening Compre.

Oh, and back to the newspaper. I was reading about the lump sum TT Durai is paid. Wth, the guy jets around lavishly in business class and gets up to 12 months bonus? I also wanna do his job, mann. Then I can fulfil my if-I-was-a-rich-girl dreams. Haha. I think that's all that came to my mind while reading the article. I mean, seriously, who doesn't wanna earn lots of money? Money makes today's world go round. So you can't blame him for accepting the salary, despite being CEO of a charity, which should be non-profit.

I think I'm out of things to talk about. Well, maybe not quite. It's just that I can't express myself anyway. I think for so long to structure my thoughts eloquently but I'm just incapable of it.

2005-07-11T18:41:00.000+08:00

The truth about userpics.

Remember I was talking about it in class, Ren?

2005-07-10T20:36:00.000+08:00

It's been an emotionally draining Sunday.

2005-07-10T20:21:00.000+08:00

A man called his dentist for an appointment. "I've got a tremendous cavity!" he said.

When the man got into the dentist's chair, the dentist peered into his mouth and said, "Oh, that doesn't seem to be much of a cavity. We can take care of that with a small filling."

"Really?" said the man. "When I stick my tongue into it, it feels like it's huge."

The dentist smiled. "It's natural for the tongue to exaggerate, don't you think?"

2005-07-09T17:04:00.000+08:00

My legs are weak!! Haha. I've lost all my stamina. Seriously. Even Syid too. We ran..we ran.. I stopped. Vomited. Ran until I caught up with Syid again.. then really couldn't endure anymore. We both walked. And one by one, others started overtaking us. So, didn't win anything la. But.. I got to do what I always wanted to do since sec1 - cross the finishing line with friends. We sprinted together and crossed the line hand in hand. =)

Our super enthusiastic juniors were super enthusiastic as usual. Last few years, I was always with them during cross country prize giving, in a group away from the rest of the school. But today, I kinda got an outsider's view. It's not really a good thing.

Oh yeah, maybe I found my new girlfriend. Right, Clarion? Afterwards, Syid joined Aqil and I for lunch. Bowled after that. Heh. I won. =P It's the first time my score reached 100 over. But after the H-band left, I kept getting gutterballs. My wrist was starting to hurt so we went home. But not before detour-ing to my house for a short swim.

It's been a tiring afternoon. I need to nap before I wake up and do Add.Maths. Darn. I have to finish up the TYS on Diff, Int, Trigo and Geometry.

2005-07-08T20:35:00.000+08:00

It's cross country again. Bahh. I so feel like slacking and not running. But it could do me some good, I guess.

Syid came over just now. Just to the pool la.. to do work. We actually got our homework done. It's an accomplishment. =) At first we were at TM. I think about 10ppl, including Ren, were at Seoul Garden to celebrate Darryl's birthday.

Syid and I were.. the H-band and the W-ayfe. 2 lost little girlies. We didn't wanna eat, neither did we wanna watch F4, which Sher and 7 others were watching. I love superheroes but somehow, F4 has never really appealed to me. We ended up buying nachos and walked all the way to my house.

Exchanged a bit of our own encounters with pettiness. Rigghhht.

somekind of wonderful =) says:
u guys got urselves girls

Maybe, eh?

I should explore my sexuality. I think it'd be pretty interesting.

2005-07-05T18:35:00.000+08:00

Random acts of kindness..

By little kids! =) 4 innocent smiling faces. So sweet. Chivalry isn't dead (amongst those aged 6 and below), after all.

Clar: Sometimes I'm just sadistic la. What fun is a movie supposedly about the extermination of humans if at least one of the main characters doesn't even get injured/killed? Look at Star Wars. Every movie, one of the main characters is injured/killed.

rf: Usually the pics posted up are taken on the same day of the post. Ermm.. sms me your name or sth. Cuz I don't really like talking to ppl whose names I don't even know. Why're you so interested, anyway?

2005-07-03T23:12:00.000+08:00

War of the worlds was such a let down! I'm so, so disappointed...

*spoilers ahead

Well, it started off fine, I guess. I could handle the narration, though I hate it when movies start off that way. If I wanted a narration, I'd go read the darn book. (Which maybe I should, to see how badly war of the worlds screwed up.)

To be fair, it wasn't a total flop. I really loved all the action of Ray and his kids running away from aliens. The part where the endoscopic eye thingy searches for him and Rachael was quite exciting. I couldn't stop chewing my nails. Hah. And Aqil hated that.

But.. how come the good guy never gets zapped? Like, when Ray runs away from the town intersection, ppl around him all get zapped, how come he doesn't? While getting on the ferry also, how is it that the main characters miraculously manage to find a way to get on board? Let's see what else. The part where Ray gets sucked up.. but Finding Nemo style, everyone pulls and he gets out. Haha. And I hated the bloody ending! I could accept all the typical good guys never die theme of the movie, even Dakota Fanning's really annoying high-pitched-always-at-the-wrong-time screams, but not the ending! I was really looking forward to something BIG. But the aliens just die cuz they aren't immune to whatever humans are immune to? Then I wonder what was the point of them planning the extermination for millions of years. They couldn't possibly overlook something as important as that, since they are supposedly smarter than humans cuz they put their plan in place a long, long time ago?

And lastly, again that good guy never dies thing. Robbie, Ray's son after supposedly being blown up or sth, still manages to reach his mother in Boston way before Ray does.

I repeat, I was so, so disappointed by War of the worlds.. I only appreciated the special effects like the whole highway being blown apart and the zapping of humans. Otherwise, it was quite ludicrous. I wouldnt have had such a huge grudge against the movie if the ending had been better!

I think I've rambled enough about the movie. Hahah..all the way home I kept complaining about it.

2005-07-01T21:57:00.000+08:00

Mt oral has come and gone. They asked about Sg Idol. Thank God. I heard today's conversation topic was about terrorism.

Had a lot of fun today. =) Youth day "celebration". After Chem test, actually intended to study..but ended up just talking. Ren, Syid, Lati, Sher, Rashida and I were sitting on the curb, acting mat. Hah. We can pull it off, okay. And we have more fun than them.

But we really couln't stand not being able to talk to each other properly. In the end, we sat in a circle and started playing say macaroni. Haha. It was followed by an upgraded version of block catching! As in block catching, but with communication through handphones. It was fun. Like re-living childhood.

I was running away from Ren, but hit a wall.. My shoulder's swollen and bruised. Some grumpy old man reprimanded us too. =/

Followed Sher home afterwards for dinner. Her grandparents all are super nice. =) And somehow or the other, everytime I go over to her house to eat, we just end up talking more than doing anything else, which is absolutely fine la. Without the self-obsession, she really listens.

2005-06-29T20:28:00.000+08:00

Beautiful sunset.
Such a pity I didn't have my cam with me. I had to make do with my phone.

Maybe in future, my occupation will be closely related to nature. I'd really like that. Annd.. I wanna be a photographer too!

School's started already. It's been quite hectic cuz I really don't know how to manage my time. Plus, I've been falling aslp in Bio lesson. Argh. It's only how many more months to Os and I've got the urge to just slack. Haha. I can't help it.

I met my dad's pri school friend and his family over the weekend. Nepalese man married to a Chi woman here with a daughter. Haha. Current ballerina, future netballer. Really sweet looking girl, whose only in pri5 and is as tall as Syid. And she sucks in Chinese too. Muaha. Crazy fathers. They actually suggested I teach Liyana mandrain. Bullshit. I'm dubious I'll even get a B-sth for Os and they want me to teach her.

Another friend happens to be really spiritual. She came to Sg to meet my dad and to sort of make "pilgrimage". She's a buddhist. And she's really into her religion. She travels the world to go to different temples. Oh, and The Swissotel is nice, very spacious. Took a nap on the huge comfy bed. =)

Sleep is.. evading me, kind of. At night la, that is. Not good, not good at all! Tmr is the O Lvl Chi oral. I'm not prepared for it! I really can't express myself in mandrain at all.

2005-06-24T22:37:00.000+08:00

Tuesdays with Morrie is a nice story. But I think I'd have cried if I read the book, not watched it as a movie. Somehow, the movie always turns out to not meet expectations after I've read the book for myself. Like The Notebook. I cried like nobody's business when I read the book.. But I fell asleep watching the movie. Am sucha sucker for cliched romance and feel good stories. Ha. =) I wanna watch a lot like love!

Anyways, today is kinda like the last day of the holidays. Don't count the weekends la. They're always thr.

Went to town. =) Sorta got Syid's really really late birthday pres.

We got shades from Far East. And for the first time, I went shopping and only spent about 20bucks. Not a nice feeling. No satisfaction! We went to Hans to eat and the damn shitty place has very lousy service. I stood there for god knows how long, and I was ignored. I called the woman and she's like, "1 second ar.." Next thing I know, she's taking the orders from ppl behind me. Like, hello? Am I invisible? Got fed up and didn't get any food in the end.

Despite the lousy service, I'd say the food wasn't half bad.

But ohh, the consequences of not getting food for myself. I'm starving now!

Mango began its sale and damn, was the place crowed. The whole place was crawling with women. And at the entrance, some poor guy would be standing there, looking into the shop, with a stoned countenance. Most men always look like that while they accompany their girlfriends/wives shopping.

6pm came too soon. We had to be in school at 6pm. English. My parents think it's a waste of time. Ha. But we rushed down anyways. Or tried to.

The cab queue was so long.. And when we finally got a cab, there were some jams.

I've got a big head. Ha. Even if I don't try, I block out Sarah.

Finally reached school at 7. Noone seemed to care cuz we waited till the break and just, "blended in".

I got my nomination letter from Ms Tang. But I'm not applying through DSA anymore though. Such a waste. She wrote a great nomination.

I've always wondered. Am I an over-achiever? Ha.

2005-06-22T21:57:00.000+08:00

Gay Bear

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Please excuse my boredom.

2005-06-22T21:52:00.000+08:00

Your wise quote is: "Our greatest glory is not
in never falling, but in rising everytime we
fall" by Confucius.
Yes indeed, you see true strenght can only be
seen when a person has "fallen". Only
then one can tell how they will handle it. Just
don't make others fall so you can know who they
really are. You on the other hand may be a very
quick recoverer and don't let people bring you
down. You are your own, and you're find with
that. Emotional issues is something you handle
rather nicely.

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2005-06-22T21:44:00.000+08:00

You're like me! The intelligent loner. You're shy
at times but friendly, and you are never weak
and always independent. You are incredibly
intelligent (wise beyond your years) and have a
talent for many things (sports, music, art).
You have a kind and warm personality and enjoy
the simple things. Like hanging out with
friends and watching movies at home. But you're
sometimes quiet nature makes you a bit of an
outcast and a mystery to people. No matter how
pretty you are or smart or athletic, you just
can't seem to break into the crowd and be
noticed. Don't worry, try to be more outgoing
and speak out when you have more to say. Don't
hide behind your books and sports and computer,
get out there and get noticed. You also have
deep desires in life and feel vunerable and
alone at times. Don't feel sad either, What
helps me to express feelings and dreams that I
can't say to people, is through my writting.
Maybe you should try.

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2005-06-22T21:20:00.000+08:00

You have a surprise kiss! Your partner is always
pleasantly pleased to have you jump outta no
where to dote them with a fun peck on the cheek
or more passionate embrace. super markets and
work places are your favorite places to attack
your loved one with all your love =p

What kind of kiss are you?
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Oh, not so innocent after all.

2005-06-22T21:14:00.000+08:00

You are a child's kiss. Completely sweet and
innocent and pure. You mean no harm and only
love in your sweet kisses.

What kind of kiss are you?
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Who'd have thunk it? Heh.

Pucker up! *mmmuuaaah.

2005-06-21T16:57:00.000+08:00

To my retarded child,

2005-06-20T17:01:00.000+08:00

No warranty = pay $100 to get the watch repaired.

But I want to shop with the money!

Oh, it's coach's birthday. =)

Weird, almost 4 years with her and she never relented when we begged her to tell us when her birthday is. When I sms-ed her today, she said she always wanted her birthday to be a secret.

I miss her scoldings. Heh.

2005-06-19T21:49:00.000+08:00

Ren: Unfortunately..it is that watch. Unless you could sacrifice your time and help me look for the warranty, it's a gone case. Just another memento.

Who is tinkie winkie?? I also wanna know. And btw, t.w: Everybody's purple friend is Barney!! =P

And all the talk about comparing Aqil and my height? Well, I've got news. He doesn't mind so much anymore. Haha. So it's alright if I grow some more. It really wouldn't hurt either of our egos. =)

It's been a busy weekend, sort of. I finally managed to catch Mr and Mrs Smith. Angelina Jolie is just plain hot. I wonder what happended to Angelina T. Haha. That felt a bit evil. But anyways, My cousin came over again.

Saturday was an early fathers' day celebration. I love my daddy.

The man of the hour. =)

We all agreed we would go Indian that night and since we were celebrating fathers' day, we let dad decide where to go. I don't know who recommended him the place, but we ended up in an uber ulu place in Serangoon. The "restaurant" was..well, kinda far from it. But it was okay la, I suppose. The food gave Ed a stomachache though. No prizes for guessing where he had to go.

Me and Ed.

A better looking Ed. (compared to the one above where he just looked plain weird.)

Mum and I.

I think my Mum should learn to bask in the sun, instead of shy from it. A bit too pale, no? But she's still beautiful. =)

After slacking a few hours with tummies bloated with pizza, Ed and I decided to go play squash today. Guys are always so arrogant aren't they. Just because you won.. =P Ha. Then kinda just stripped and jumped into pool for a while.

And we were off to watch Batman.

Worth the money. Though I really hate it that it now costs $9.50 on weekends. As if we students aren't broke enough already.

I think why I liked Batman is because of my childhood. I don't know if anyone had the same experience as I did, but there used to be this show, Batman and Robin. And i loved it. It was complete with superhero, hot car and villians. And hey, whenever Batman and Robin beat the villians silly, on the screen would appear those comic bubbles thingie with words like BAM! and POW! Haha.

To a kid, it was cool, way cool. The good guys always won.

And I remember some cousins and I would don towels and jump off the couches in the living room, singing at the top of our lungs, the theme song for the Batman and Robin show. All we needed to do was wear underwear over our pants and hey, presto! We became supermen. =)

Ah. Childhood. I never had many friends but I always had my cousins and they were enough to make my childhood memorable. Family is family. =)

2005-06-17T12:08:00.000+08:00

I lost my Swatch warranty! Without it, I can't send the watch for repair...

2005-06-17T00:17:00.000+08:00

2005-06-16T22:18:00.000+08:00

Nothing's on lately. Really, really bored is a serious understatement.

Clumsy me has spilt huge glasses of water/juice all week and now some parts of the carpets smells funky. I would know because I lie down on it whenever I use the laptop.

I've broken my spectacles. Again. Darn. I think I might as well get new ones.

In an attempt to fulfil my wish to grow taller, my mother came up with a brilliant idea. She saw an ad in Karnataka about this sole thing that has certain raised parts all over it and it's supposed to stimulate pressure points on the soles of the feet which in turn will stimulate growth hormones and it's claimed to work for anyone under 30. So, she took the liberty of ordering them and today is the first day I'm trying it out.

Supposedly, I must walk 40 minutes a day on that darn thing. Painful leh.

I am currently 164cm in height. So, let's see if the thing really works. If it does, I should be taller in 3 months. They didn't exactly state how much taller.. Must be a scam, right.

By the way, it's a Jap product. That explains the risibility. Hmm.

2005-06-12T17:04:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday, Ren!

=)

2005-06-10T16:32:00.000+08:00

9th of June. Quite a day to remember. =) Had Lit in town so met Syid and Ren there. Shopped a bit and I bought nice shoess. Walked around a lot, mann. My feet were aching.

Cookie monster! She almost single-handedly finished my bag of Famous Amos.

The train was shaky la. Plus, it's Ren's handiwork. =)

After frantically searching, we found a few gifts. Suddenly, it's already 630 and we were supposed to be at the farewell at 7! (Oh, I was still not invited la. Pearlene thought something freaky was happening when the office phone suddenly rang.. o.O) But anyways, we were freaking out in the cab cuz there was so much things all lying around and we needed to wrap some stuff! We were all late and somehow, amidst everything, we lost Mdm Rohaya's gift! I felt so, so bad. But it was late and we couldn't do anything so the three of us waited for Cleo and Shing Ee behind the dumpster, writing a "we owe you" note for her. Haha.

The place stinked. And Shing Ee. Woah. I've never met anyone else so goondu! We were walking into the canteen and somehow, all the candy we bought for the juniors spilt out of the bag.

'02 batch of Netballers. (Or what's left of us)

Syid and the nice cat.

We took some pics after dinner and were soon asked to go to the avt. As per Dmn Netball tradition, the juniors put up little performances for us. It was a real change fron all the previous years of singing and crying. But it was really sweet that they actually came up with a poem about each and every one of us. That was when we started crying.

We presented our gifts to the teachers and the juniors had a surprise for us. They made us close our eyes and confident walk style, led us to the basketball court. Where they made us sing before we could open our eyes to see...

this! Aww. So sweet of them. And they did take the chance to be cheeky la. They tried to get the 6 of us to blow out all the candles in one breath. But it was fun they sang birthday songs. I'll bet Ren won't forget this camp. =) She insisted on taking a pic of the cake for her, Mdm Rohaya and Clarion.

Thenn, we had a treasure hunt! Another Netball tradition. My group was going round and round in circles. Tsktsk.

Clarion had to go soon though. Her dad came..

But it was fun! Know why?

Cuz for the first time for everyone in the group, in 4 years of Netball camps, we won! =)

Ren's victory dance?

Lights out was at 1am. Put the sec1s to sleep, and the sec2s and 3s atarted cleaning up. Only Syid and I stayed over. We couldn't sleep. At 3am, we borrowed a basketball and started playing. I feel old, mann. And seriously unfit.

But it was fun. We stunk but whatever, just slept like dat. We only got about 2hours of sleep. But we had lots of fun. And we had company!

I change my mind about cats already. Such a cute little thing. =)

Awww. =)

2005-06-07T21:11:00.000+08:00

Oh yes, did I mention? I got back my 6230. Anyone want the flip? If so, can sms me.

2005-06-07T17:57:00.000+08:00

I don't exactly know where to start. Maybe like, I'm in love? =) With clothes that is. Went and splurged on this white skirt cuz it had lovely sequins!

Lookie here. =)

Nice lovely sequins! Like a very nice top I saw. But I wouldn't wear that top out. But it was so nice. Ha. I'm so fickle. Sarah, Ren and I then went to eat at Mache. It's not that nice la. I don't get why Sean is full of praises for it. But death by chocolate? Almost.

Eh. I just _________________________________. Forgot what I did on Monday. Ah, yes. I swam! With Sarah. Byron almost joined us but he bailed so he could meet Indons in town. She talks a lot. Haha..a lot of catching up, I suppose.

The seminar in town was super boring. Boo. I don't wanna go back tmr and Thurs.

Oh yeah, Thursday's the netball June camp farewell night. =) Every year, it's a night of laughter and lots and LOTS of tears. But our juniors.. Haha. They were so busy planning the camp perfectly, they forgot our invitations!

2005-06-04T00:51:00.000+08:00

eurgh. I'm feeling insomniac-ish. Usually, I'm a good daddy's girl and am sleeping before 12. But today.. Mann. I've grown too accustomed to routines that once I'm out of it, I'm really out of it.

And I've got the compulsive urge to spend all my hard-saved money! Shopping is like second nature already. Like on Thurs, spending time just trying on outfits which I doubt any of us will ever really buy, let alone wear and walk down Orchard Road in.

Madagascar was fun? Haha. It was so-so. Not up to standard after all the hype. Bumped into Adora along the way. Woah. Hot babe alert. Haha. It's amazing how different ppl are really are inside and outside school.

Friendship is over-rated. Yea. Darn it. It's like, shit just happens and suddenly, wham bam thank you ma'am, everything's not the same anymore and you know it never will be. In this case, the shit didn't even happen. We just.. stopped talking. The issue's been put aside for too long and I just don't know how to deal with it. Other than the occasional bitching, of course.

I guess it's really true la, huh. That ppl are sarcastic/bitchy/backstabbing when they're insecure. And all the bullshit about being yourself, true to yourself, not caring about what others say? It's just that.. Bullshit. In this superficial world, everything's lip service. It may fool us for a while, but even after we know the truth behind the matters, we just continue paying bloody lip service.

2005-05-31T20:28:00.000+08:00

I'm finally back on the com. Internet connection's been giving me hell the past few days!

Holidays are here. Yea, right. What holiday?

There's class practically everyday!

Like tmr, I already planned to go see some ice sculptures and suddenly, Aqil has class. Fine. Wanted to go zoo with Ren and some of my class ppl and suddenly, Ms Poh announces we have Geog class tmr. No fairr.

Don't we deserve some kind of break after the MT O?

Speaking of which, it was fine. Yes, just fine. If screwing up paper2 is fine. I spent the whole weekend studying so, so hard. And what comes out? Stupid simple words which I wasn't expecting at all! Life's like that. As Madhu would put it.

My only comfort is if I don't get the grade I want, I can always sit the paper again later this year.

After the paper.. actually wanted to watch Star Wars again. But we didn't wanna watch it so late. Sher ended up at my house. She loves that my house is full of perfume. Haha.. And she also loves that my phone can take much clearer pics than hers.

This one's mine..

Cute, right, the monkey?

And in the evening, there was a Meet the Parents session. For the first time, dad really cared. He saw my report book and was like, "All these subjects, I expect you to get A1s for O Levels."

Well, it's not as if I didn't already tell myself the same thing.

But later on, he was still sweet la. =) "I see you've improved on your Chinese a lot. Good. I'm happy you're learning Chi. Your grandfather's even happier. He'll get you a job at the Chi embassy." Haha.. (Family "joke" because of my granddad's obsession with Chi.) He wanted to talk to LLL but he saw the line and who was in the line and decided to just leave.

Friday, Ren and I went to see coach at Pasir Ris Crest. Her knee still not healed properly. But she's still the same la. Shouting, shouting, shouting. Haha. But it was nice seeing her again. She thinks we're too fair already. This June probably gonna join Renegades.. play, have fun. It's been so long since I played Netball! And I'm so unfit already. Cellulite. Urgh. Haha. It was nice seeing the PRC girls and listening to Mr.San complain again.

Today, there was a Career Guidance Seminar. I got to sit through Mass Comm and because of some mix up, sat through some IT nonsense instead of Biomed. But the Mass Comm was interesting. Journalism for me, maybe?

Afterwards, rushed down to ACS(I) for the talk about the IB programme. I so wanna go there too. But how? My mid year L1R5 was 22. Like hello? I can't even go to a JC with that, and I'm bothering to apply through DSA for schools like VJ, TJ and ACS? Maybe I should just wait for Prelims. But right now, I really hope I can make it to ACS.

Something interesting about ACS. Haha. We convinced our "tour guides" to let us go to the clocktower. So there we were, opening door after door, climbing flight after flight of stairs. Annndd. Since it's the clocktower, the place was narrow but the thing is.. there were matresses lying around. So what do guys (aged 16 with raging hormones) think about? Haha..Sean even swore the strings were probably used as bondage.

Hmm.

Whatever they guys there do to.. erm.. entertain themselves.. doesn't really matter la. It's a good school with kids who are effing rich and at the same time, extremely clever. And I wanna go there!

Oh, yeah. Hot new topic: My dad's cool new bike.. And it's complete lack of speed!

2005-05-26T21:06:00.000+08:00

Coach made me think. And re-think and re-think. VJ: Good rep, but accd to coach, too slack, no monitoring and too much activities, studies will go downhill unless I stand firm on my decisions and not get swayed by other people's persuasive powers. TJ: Even if I don't join Netball, Coach will be around to look out for me and monitor me. Or perhaps it's just propaganda..

2005-05-26T18:02:00.000+08:00

I'm so overwhelmed by Chinese can. Imagine if one subject only, and we're stressed out, how will the real Os be like?

I wanna watch Star Wars againn. But Reno couldn't make it on Monday. Wasted the day away. There was a scary encounter on Tues. But I guess it's alright. Dad knows Aqil now and even has a nickname for him: Babyface. Ha! Rubbish. The highlight of the week, I suppose is the Dunman Idol auditions?

No.. I didn't try out. I was the judge! The teachers couldn't make it so somehow, I was amongst the other students filling in. It was fun. But I just couldn't bear to be cruel la.

Oh, yeah.. I'm super impressed by Mrs Low. =) She knows her students so well and has planned out an impressive schedule for all the way up to Prelims. I now have one less subject to worry about.

P.S, apologies to my cousin, who vehemently protests to my claim that he thinks he's uber cool. But kay la, Ed, I'm sorry.

2005-05-22T23:41:00.000+08:00

First outing with my cousin. I've knwon him all my life and I've never ever even held a proper conversation with him till this year. He's nineteen and happens to think he's like so uber cool. Yeah..Right.

Star Wars was so-so la. But effects were good. Of course la, it's Star Wars. Haha. Hayden Christensen may be good-looking but he must must must learn to act better. The lovey dovey conversation between him and Padme wasn't lovey dovey. It was lame! Hahha. It didn't even show that the two were in love, more like just saying sth for the sake of saying it. No feeling la dey.

Then erm.. Someone explain to me how Anakin's arm and both legs can be cut off at the same time? The distance is a bit off. And how come when jedis' hands are cut off, ppl are decapitated, there isn't any blood and in the last scene, where did Anakin's legs and forearm disappear to after being cut off? And one more thing. Darth Vader's suit is to like, support his spine and help his breathing problems thus the asthmatic wheezing but come on la, his arm and legs got cut off and he caught fire. His spine wasn't boken. So how come he needs the whole suit and how did he suddenly get breathing problems?

The movie was a bit emotional maybe, with all the jedis being ambushed by their own troops and murdered. But Yoda could still fight! Haha. Cuteness. (If your mind is as warped as mine.) I was surprised. The whole Anakin going to the dark side was for love. Ah, nevermind. I shall watch the movie again and hopefully, find more things to muse about.

2005-05-20T23:49:00.000+08:00

We had a mini career guidance seminar today. A lawyer, a policeman and a journalist. The journalist put me off journalism. The lawyer on the other hand, was impressive. Haha. He's witty, hurtful, and charming in his own right. Ren and I were walking about how we could definitely imagine Byron as that lawyer.

Somehow, the talk was more about "studying hard" and abstaining from pre-marital sex than about career prospects. I quote Ms Yew, "Do not have pre-marital sex! If you feel the urge, eat chocolates!" Ironic, considering chocolate is an aphrodisiac.

Anyways, let's reminisce. It's been long overdue.

The last game of DMN Netball 'B' Div '05.

Sec 4s.

Family portrait. =)

Hah! The closest we got to a pic with coach.

Defenders.

Attackers.

Candid shot?

"Come here, baby." ;)

Eh..off centre la. Must be Longxin take one.

DMN & PRCS Netball

'B' Div '05. I'm missing it already.

2005-05-20T20:44:00.000+08:00

She felt the darkness move in closer, take on weight, begin to immobilise her with its destiny. She tried to focus on the available light, picking out one of the brightest stars in the swath of the Milky Way. But almost immediately it seemed to disappear, as if looking at it somehow used up its light, reaching out of its own past for her eyes, so far in its future. The star popped back into existence when she moved her focus just to the right - an immeasurable stretch of time and space covered in infinitesimal fractions of both - and it entered her close peripheral vision where she could see it again. One star after another, fading and reappearing, endless light-years, time for a star's birth and death, expressed in a flaw in her sight. Or perhaps the fault was in her perception: the star didn't fade, but her mind refused to acknowledge what it knew no longer existed. She moved her gaze back and forth a few more times, losing and then finding one star in particular. Perhaps that's what she needed to do with herself: look obliquely in order to bring whatever was left of herself into view, or to see what there had been before it seemed to have disappeared, to convince herself it hadn't.

2005-05-20T18:57:00.000+08:00

Signs that lead to misunderstanding

1. In a restroom:

TOILET OUT OF ORDER. PLEASE USE FLOOR BELOW

2. In a Laundromat:

AUTOMATIC WASHING MACHINES: PLEASE REMOVE ALL YOUR CLOTHES WHEN THE LIGHT GOES OUT

3. In a London department store:

BARGAIN BASEMENT UPSTAIRS

4. In an office:

WOULD THE PERSON WHO TOOK THE STEP LADDER YESTERDAY PLEASE BRING IT BACK OR FURTHER STEPS WILL BE TAKEN

5. In another office:

AFTER TEA BREAK STAFF SHOULD EMPTY THE TEAPOT AND STAND UPSIDE DOWN ON THE DRAINING BOARD

6. Outside a second-hand shop:

WE EXCHANGE ANYTHING - BICYCLES, WASHING MACHINES, ETC. WHY NOT BRING YOUR WIFE ALONG AND GET A WONDERFUL BARGAIN?

7. Notice in health food shop window:

CLOSED DUE TO ILLNESS

8. Spotted in a safari park:

ELEPHANTS PLEASE STAY IN YOUR CAR

9. Seen during a conference:

FOR ANYONE WHO HAS CHILDREN AND DOESN'T KNOW IT, THERE IS A DAY CARE ON THE 1ST FLOOR

10. Notice in a farmer's field:

THE FARMER ALLOWS WALKERS TO CROSS THE FIELD FOR FREE, BUT THE BULL CHARGES.

11. Message on a leaflet:

IF YOU CANNOT READ, THIS LEAFLET WILL TELL YOU HOW TO GET LESSONS

12. On a repair shop door:

WE CAN REPAIR ANYTHING.
(PLEASE KNOCK HARD ON THE DOOR - THE BELL DOESN'T WORK)

2005-05-19T17:37:00.000+08:00

3 days of getting back our results. I got depressed. A little. But I drowned it all away in the pool.

There's just sth about swimming alone at night, when you got the pool all to yourself.

Swim, swim, swim. Back and forth. Forever? I wish.

I just like being under the water, weightless. Look around, it's dark, save for the beams of light which make the water look greenish. I used to imagine I was in a sunken ship kinda thing, with the the murky-looking water, and the beams of light being the portholes of the ship. A bit like deep blue sea? haha. Rubbish, I know.

The 3 days revealed mostly shitty results, one after another. From all my sciences to A.Maths.

But on the bright side, there's still hope for my Chi yet and I really don't need to drop to Chi B. Annnd, I passed Geog. Though not spectacularly, but it was still nice to know I passed Geog after the bleak picture Ms Poh painted. But anyhows, looking at the results overall, I think I'm losing my intelligence. (And DON'T ask, "You mean you actually HAD any intelligence?")

Eng, E.Maths, Phy, Bio : B3
Chi, Chem : B4
Humans, Lit : C6
A. Maths : D7

Blame it on myself. The studying-the-day-before-exam rubbish. I really should stop procrastinating. And wishing I was a genius. Instead, study, study, study. Yes, that is what I shall do. I hope it pays to be a nerd.

2005-05-16T18:04:00.000+08:00

Ooh. I can feel myself turning darker already. The pool was nice and empty, as per normal. Aqil swam with me. (Or more like left me behind in the bubbles.) I should swim more. And in the morning, trained a bit with with the juniors. =) I should train more as well. Run more, to be exact. And tmr, having a squash session with dad! I'm such a sports freak. I like I like I like!

On a lower note, my suspicions were confirmed by Ms Poh. I failed Geog. Bahh. Sucker. According to Ms Siti, our class MSG for A.Maths, supposedly the best, is only 5.sth la. =/ And the rest of the level did just as bad. I'm dreading tmr.

2005-05-15T20:32:00.000+08:00

I had tuition today again, to make up for last week's session. I needed to clear my mind. So, I found myself at the beach.

Then, I spotted something..

Upon closer inspection..

Eh! It's a jellyfish!

And another one!

In fact, for the first time in my life, I saw many jellyfish. Heh. *Poke, poke.* Eh, they're really like jelly! Hahhaha.