// dun`t ask why. it`s just a breakdwn, it happens all the time..

*sighs
tummy ache back again.
was okay all day.
took oral. was kinda easy.
conversation asked whut kinda music i liked.
and do i go ta concerts.
had so much ta talk. haha..
thn happily cuttin hair fer my darlin.
lol. im becoming a hairdresser.
and i think i cut not bad arhz. =]
thn tummy suddenly ache again.
took some eno.
alkali ta neutralise acidity. o.O
haha..im becoming a nerd.
hafta, if i wanna do well.

anyways..
turns out im not on team.
am "under probation".
along with reno, cow and some others la.
hmm..dunno if i mind.
just felt kinda numb whn i found out.
talked ta some ppl.
"you may not know it but i know deep dwn you`re sad you didn`t get inta the team. under probation right? you still got a chance ta try fer the team."
hmm..maybe.
but it just kinda feels hopeless.
thn this morning also..
heard sarah and pearlene thinking of stopping training.
wanna take "study leave".
fer sarah maybe, understandable.
triple sci plus nball can be very very tiring.
but pearlene`s not even taking Os nxt yr.
with so many ppl thinking lidat..
how not ta feel hopeless?