heh..i like trainings wid auntie julie. less scolding. but just as fruitful. =) did some very nice plays today. i miss ren. so does the rest of the team. as from today, mr teo is no longer teacher i/c of nball. he is pe hod. and our new nball co i/c is mdm rohaya. not so bad la. she`s those sporty types too. does rockclimbing.

am currently being a photographer fer the sec1 orientation camp. along wid other mobius ppl.

halfway went to shoot. mr.tan challenged me to shooting again ar. i won. again. haha..we been having these mini-competitions since ezone this yr.

was observing the sec1s..mostly all those gu niang ones or act cool types. haha..and gawdd. they are bloody rude. this one girl shoved mess tins at elroy and actually demanded him to wash fer her. talk abt pampered kids. tsktsk.

well, i`ll just go fer the orientation tmrs and get it over wid. [they get to travel around sg. from whut i heard, one of the stations is at citylink.]

hmm..running outta words. so..


pearlene, nat and ainul


mobius 89-ers. zhun yu, me elroy and ruilong [excluding jj,coww and huiyu]


mel


mr. tan


got a kick outta this one. i really look like a guy. =P

yupps. dad loved his golf balls and mum loved her perfume. haha..i got a few nice stuff. namely adidas body spray and new shoes dat are so super nice to run in. but i must wait fer the guit. i may not even get it. aiz- depends on my cuz. *prays hard*

and just lidat, it`s onli a week away from school! omfgdness. got bio plus chem plus ss test in first week and i havent even touched any books. heck, my room`s in a bloody mess. i hafta stop procrastinating.

erms. log cake anyone? haha..got too much leftovers ar. my husband come ovr today ta help me eat some. =)

oh yeah. i actually managed to make use of the gym mann. shall start working out. musclewoman! haha..nahhhh. went swimming just now too. damn the holidays. irritating little kids. cute la..but irritating. everytime i wanna do laps, some kid comes floating past.

on a more serious note. xmas day wasn`t really a happy occasion fer all. my condolences to ashraf. im really sorry abt your dad. if you need a listening ear, im around kae?

merry christmas!! =)

bought gifts fer mum and dad ardi. later exchange presents. haha.. =)

just got back. frm another nball bbq. this time was a xmas one. i think it`s quite possibly one of the best bbqs we`ve had. =)

before the bbq part, me eirene mel nat peiwen ain karen went to send vini off. sadded. peiwen karen and ain cried mann. zenn was thr too. cuz vini`s bro is his best fren. he seemed to have cried too. but gd thing she`s coming back during june.

yarr. thn went grocery shopping fer the bbq. haha..the sec2s are a riot mann. picked up the squishy sotong. ew. the ink spilled out. haha..we were amused by the trolley escalator. met syid ta buy our gifts. fer pot luck.

see everyone buys some gifts and draw lots to get gift la. haha..xmas. exchange pres la..haha.

bought perfume fer ms siti and my mum.

the bbq was fun. maybe it`s cuz this time it was only a small group of ppl. mr teo brought ian! omgdness. so cute mann he. haha..he`d do anything to make mr teo happy. ahha..carried him. so hansome. haha..mel nat peiwen and karen were our santas. they bought gifts fer everyone.

on the way back, i was right in front of the bus, ready to go home. thn realised left my wallet in sch. ran all the way back to get it.

and now im here. tryna get some pics frm pras. maybe tmr i upload or whut. and i must say. one whole day wid contacts. almost like torture. im so not used ta it. eyes felt very dry and all. and towards evening lidat, felt as if contacts were gonna drop out. haha..must get my specs tmrs.

hey! talking to my dad online..haha.. when he`s just outside. ahaahah..

parent: there wun`t be trainings till 27dec.

umm..kae. past few days. nuthin much la. falling sick a bit though. monday trained. was fun. as per normal. that`s how trainings have been lately and thank god fer that. =) kinda looking forward to east zone ardi.

ms siti blanjahed me ren and syid ta seoul garden. she`s so like one of us. haha..felt like just friends going out..haha..

was lazing arnd the hse. looking at pics of arwan! haha..(heard he went wild wild wet today.) can imagine him in swimming trunks and all..ahah. so cute! =)

then buk called. i think. (cuz im not sure if dat was monday or tues) invitation ta pool wid adam and him. 8pm. decided it`d be too late. so decided ta virtual pool. hahaah..long time since i played. meet nice weird ppl. like i had a weird conversation wid this guy from ontario, canada abt the freakin weather? but whut ta do? whut else can strangers talk abt. but i think i open up ta strangers more easily. they dunno me. they can`t judge. even if they do, they`re strangers so i wouldnt care. maybe that`s why.

tues. supposed ta go town wid ren and syid. shopping. haha..but din. i thought id stay home, clean my room, do some homework. but being the procrastinator that i am, i ended up wasting the day. lazing around.

umm, anyways, like i said, trainings have been fun lately. till today. but it wasn`t so bad still la. coach was just in a foul mood fer a while. prcs came dwn. warm up was fun..haha. i was just hyper today la. sprained a finger. but our performances was good. was feeling so wow everytime renaeus intercepted. auntie julie came down. she`s taking us next week.

aft training, we gave our huge gigantic card to coach. =) we all did small cards to paste on the big card. haha..damn nice kae. haha..thn prcs gave us cookies. baked by wenna the bapok i heard..haha. unexpected. most of us were surprised when we heard that wenna baked them. haha..but it was nice la. =) so thr we were, huge group. everyone smiling from ear to ear, passing around cookies. it all felt so..christmassy! haha..

talked a bit. thn mr teo blanjahed seoul garden too. this time was syid me cc and jasmine. woah- i dun ever wanna go seoul garden till next yr. all i eat thr is chicken chicken chicken. haha..

talked abt prom. again. mr teo was discouraging me and syid frm goin prom. waste of money and all. haha..but dunno la. we`ll decide when the time comes. kinda been waiting fer it la. i rem talking abt prom dresses wid lati, sarah, ren. at one time, even cow and syid. haha..but maybe it`ll turn out to be a disappointment like this yr. o.O heh..during NE tour before holidays, ren and i were actually thinking, if the prom gets boring, get the rich indons to book the penthouse at fullerton so we cld have our own party. haha..dreeeeaaaammm.

thn since was bloated frm eating and tired frm training, thought wanna go home slp..ended up going downtown to bowl. my wrist hurts now.

went to fix my specs too. i think when i dropped in during training a while ago, the lens sorta came loose. onli realised it recently. the guy said theyd repair it. so i walked outta the shop, half blind. stuck wid contacts now. i look horrible wid them. haha..it`s only till tmr though. i hope.

hah! bibi just emailed me. sth abt 4a lit. gawdd. her email is so bloody long and all abt king of the castle, i cant be bothered ta read it. aiz- lit lit lit. havent touched it at all. omgdness. am so dead next yr. maybe i`ll back out of taking lit fer O levels. and talking abt studies, sch`s starting. 3jan if im not wrong. time sure flies.

garr. my dad`s got a new apple ibook. sickening.

hmm..my cousin got robbed. not robbed, more lyk burgled? or howevr you spell it la. poor him. it`s hard enuf living on a budget alone in sg. he gets limited money frm his parents frm nepal. shares apt wid some friends.

they were all out, except him. he was sleeping and his hp, 200plus cash, laptop got stolen. dunno whut else. dad din tel me anymore. this was all last night i think.

and just now, at the pool place, i was sms-in "edwin". only it wasn`t my cuz aft all. the conversation seemed weird ta me thn but thinkin through it now, the arsehole was tryna scam me. o.O

Eh borrow money can?

$150

Transfer to my acc arhz?

Oh ya the elec. My fren working now. Aft that want to meet where?

You stay where? I go your house arhz.

wtf mann. lucky din give any info ta him. and i really really thought i was sms-ing my cousin.

went dwn ta kallang yest. played fer the umpires test.

alvin passed. without cheating.

haha..we got retarded wid the prc girls. hahah..we named ouselves bapok, lao pei pei and aqua. haha..nonsense shit la. but it sure got the umpires very distracted.

me and syid wanted ta go suntec aftwards, but we missed the stop. ended up at marina square. honestly nvr knew it existed before. aft lunch, walked all the way to plaza sing. took us abt half hour. wasn`t so bad. haha..memories. when i still lived at 469, me and syid wld walk home frm sch.

oh yeah. coincidence: the famous edris that buk and adam always compliment happens to be syid`s cousin. o.O aha..such a small world.

looked fer shoes at ps. but no more nball shoes my size. aiz- how how? need new shoes desperately.. grr to judith! who happened to buy the last pair of size 8 nball shoes. =P

ended up walking around. i wanna get dat trucker cap. but it`s too big fer me.

we bought necklaces. the woman at the shop thought we`re sisters. haha..very dark sisters.

buk: this is a extra special note. haha..just fer you. =) dun`t work too much ar. later fall sick make your darling wid the ring worry fer you. ahaks.

kae. nw that`s done.

today`s main thing: big 25. haha..smaile smaile smaileee. =)

lunched wid syid. window shopped. squeezed into a changing room ta try same pair of pants. haha..still wondering if i shld get the pants. met aqil in aftnoon.

hmm..my parents ajak me go ocean`s twelve! haha..but didn`t go wid them la. cuz tmr morning must be at kallang. they still watching the movie i think. watched national treasure wid aqil instead.

i`m a geek la..haha. like those kinda thinking thinking movies. thn saw adam at pavillion kfc.

kla. nth much. bored. shld have gone kallang.

coww: aei, ask your dad if you can stay fer study sessions aft training la. gettin mr.teo/ms.siti ta teach you is better than rotting at home rite? and yeah, got your cd. praba decorated it very nicely fer you.

aishah: but you have free time ta work in the first place yes? haha..but still, dun`t like the idea of working. o.O

mitch: thnx. =)

aDam: so protective ovr da weird fella? big and burly, scary. id hate ta get on his bad side. anyways, i challenge you ta pool! haha..up fer it? =P

yest went down ta kallang despite morning training. playing in the dark. i like. haha..played centre. now i finally understand why ppl like adora (prc) and karen sweat so much. on the way back, we were damn choosy la. we got on 12 but got off the next stop just cuz it was single deck. haha..so waited fer next bus and ended up meeting the prc ppl. wid food. haha..stole some. ainul managed ta squeeze away the rubbish under the seats or god knows whr. o.O

blog-hopping. i quote:
" it's not about dying for your country,
it's about making the enemy die for his. "

i like days like today. stay at home. slack. eat. and eat and eat and eat. =)

and learnt ta play move on by jet.

haha..the kitchen light`s freaking. like some camera flash. on. off. on. off.

oh i just rem whut i wanted ta say. abt my darling grandfather. haha. i love him, i really do. but he`s scary sometimes, esp when he`s drunk. but he means well la.

my mum just told me he said he wants me ta make a name fer myself. he claims he has another 15 years to live so by then, i must have made a name fer myself. haha..he`s so sweet.

yeah. as i`ve mentioned long time ago, he has a lot of hopes pinned on me.

oh one more thing. he`s abt 70plus i think. and all of a sudden, he`s telling us he wants to re-marry. =) one of the things i like abt my grandfather: he`s willing to accept and even wants changes. any type of change.

it`s been a long few days. but i liked it. haha..i really dun`t mind training so much. sat played games at kallang fer trainee umpires. haha..alvin joined umpring. must be fer long xin. =) arww..so sweet rite. haha..the 2 of them call me the little indian boy btw. haha..nonsense.

sunday played under renegades. our games weren`t so good. but we stayed fer the 2nd round ta watch bedok csc against extremes. damn mr bob. hahhaa..bedok won. wow. very exciting game. i love the way wanling stretches so much. she`s like a rubber band! haha..

thn went down ta queensway ta look fer the nball shoe. but i couldn`t find my size. probably won`t find ever again cuz thr aren`t any more stocks coming into asia. aiz- sadded. really need new shoes that will last on court.

mon and today had friendly matches. yest was temasek jc and today yishun sec. i must really improve myself. yeah. new yr resolution? nah..it`s too late fer dat. just gotta push myself. a lot.

nball aside, pooled wid buk yest. halfway adam and some weird guy came. =) all smiles. heh..buk knows why. hahahaha.. went ljs fer dinner and saw aishah. students and holiday jobs. tsktsk. dunno why they bother working. got abt 40 yrs of your later life to work, why start now?

anyways..i forgot whut else i wanted ta say.

adam adam:
so bad ta buk. haha..anyways. just wait until my dad finds out abt the videocam. when/if he does and fixes it, i`ll burn fer da 2 of you la. and abt the "fender"..i dunno if it`s a fender but if it is, i might think abt sellin it ta you. =) anyways, you got so many guits, why wld you need another one?

kae. training was sorta bad? coach getting frustrated again. she stopped training early today. she`s going away next week i think. so heard from ms siti training`s gonna be mon tues wed. so add to my training list. fri sat sun mon tues. 5 consecutive days. haha..i`ll survive.

oh one more thing. i was reminded of prom nite. constantly. stupid npcc. kept on playing the reason. and i couldnt get aisyah`s voice outta my head. "walao..they (as in some male sec4 graduates) were singing: i found a reason to leeeaavvveee".

went to gelare ta eat wid syid and reno. not bad la. it`s just ice cream. but the prices are extortionate.

anyways, today im posting fer another different reason. not just to update abt my boring life. but reflections too i guess. i was thinking a lot. abt the ppl around me. how many of them are true friends? and honestly, since lati, i haven`t had a best friend. right now, the closest to a best friend i suppose would be aqil or buk. and even then, it`s not enough.

but then again, maybe im just asking for too much.

and ppl are chaging. namely my darling husband. (s)he`s become very naughty. haha..unwilling to go town wid us. always complaining it`s too far blah blah.. but yest, (s)he was out wid someone. shall not elaborate.

but can`t help it i guess. ppl change. for good or bad. and thr`s nuthing we can do but adapt. accept the ppl despite chnges.


the old days. ahha..i talk as if it`s been ages.

hmm..as you`d probably noticed in my previous post, i`ve started listening to guns and roses again. was at tm dat garden area this aftnoon and saw a guns n roses video too. coincidence? haha..that`s besides the point. the point is..where the hell is my guns n roses cd??!

I've been lookin' for a trace
Lookin' for a heart,
Lookin' for a lover in a world
That's much too dark
Because you don't want my love, no, no
You wanna sati-satisfaction
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, ow!
You don't need my love
You got to find yourself another
Another piece, another piece of the Action,
yeah, ow yeah, look out

Say where ya goin? What you gonna do?
I been lookin' everywhere said I,
I been lookin' for you
Because you don't want my love, no, no
You wanna sati-satisfaction
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah
You don't need my love
You got to find yourself another
Another piece, another piece
Of the action

You're crazy, hey, hey
You know you're crazy, oh my!
You're fuckin' crazy, oh child
You know you're crazy
Ay,ay,ay,ay,ay,ay,ah,ah,ah,ah, yeah!
Woh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah
Oh na,no,na,no,na,no,na,no,na,no,no,no
No,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no
No,no,no, no, no, no, no,no,no,no,no,no
no,no,no! Oh no, oh no, oh no, oh no, Oh no, ow! -Woooh, yowl!

Say, boy, where ya comin' from?
Where'd ya get that point of view?
When I was younger
I knew a Motherfucker like you,
and she said,
'You don't need my love,
You wanna sati-satisfaction,' Bitch
You don't need my love,
You've got to find yourself another
Another piece, another piece
Of the action

You're crazy, hey, hey
You know you're crazy, oh my!
You're fuckin' crazy, oh child
You know you're crazy, Ay, ay, ay, ay,
You know you're crazy, Hey, hey,
You're fuckin' crazy, Oh child,
You know you're crazy, Ay, ay, ay, ay,
You're fuckin' crazy, Yeah
You know you are!
Bring it down!
You're fuckin' crazy!

You're crazy - Guns N Roses

hmm..know thr`s this ad on tv fer sony handycam? well, the guy is shown filming tibetians. and the song is in tibetian too. and i suddenly was wondering..most of my cousins from my mum`s side learnt tibetian. so why didn`t i?

boring day. been listening ta jazz. ray charles! courtesy of ren.

yest went ta nball bbq aft training. loved training. defenders were aggressive! heh..the magic word ppl, the magic word. yeah. and beep test. my fitness is pathetic really. level 8.9 only. but i think i should`ve pushed further. nahmind, thr`s always next time.

at the bbq, ren and me were the cooks. haha. lousy ones. couldn`t even tell if the food was cooked so just in case, we let the food get burnt a bit. haha..went cycling aftwards. just my luck. the stupid bike had the most friction. was almost dying when cycling. could feel my legs burning. went to fishermen`s village dat side. haha..freaked big aisah at the spinning thingy. left abt 10plus. and al the while, mr.teo, mr.tan and cc were playing mahjong in one stupid room. o.O

oh, and on the way back, we went to the red hse. hmm..not that freaky really. but stil...

when sml aisyah started serenading us, i realised i havent been touching my baby lately. the last song i played was..gawd. i can`t rem. i need ta pay more attention to him. hmm..but then again, my cousin did say that he`s gonna gimme his elec FOC as a xmas pres. =)

coach called me up. im supposed ta go down to kallang on sat AND sun. means..tmr training, sat2pm at kallang. aft which i gotta rush to bedok fer tuition. and then..sun 730am at kallang. and then train on mon again. bish~ gonna be a long week.

my nails are growing! haha..no big deal rite? wrong.

big deal ta me. im a habitual nail biter. having the nails grow is lyk a big accomplishment.

hmm..was supposed ta go chi sinseh. which ren was supposed ta reccomend. needless ta say, she didn`t so didn`t go la. it`s abt my damn leg. been aching since last mon. a bit swollen too. nahmind. it`s okay.

instead, met lati. she`s buying my discman. 60bucks. abt half of which will go ta ikmal tmrs cuz i spent da money rie gave me ta pay him..haha. and fer the first time, i deep fried chicken ta eat. haha..another accomplishment. i fear hot oil. imagine the oil bubbling and the cuz of the water, it starts popping and it hits you. freaky. irrational fear actually. cuz that rarely actually happens.

anyways, dad still hasn`t found out abt the videocam. he`s been too busy. haha..anyhow, should be able ta fix the thing la.

oh fuckshit. i think i spoilt the videocam. was tryna burn the video onto cd so i cld give buk. but..i think i put in the wrong cable or whut, now the connection part is gonecase. am so gonna get it frm dad.

still very bleary eyed. haha..i wanna slp!! but cant la. hate it when dat happens. kae. anyways..the gig. the GIG. THE gig. the prom. haha..chijmes was wow. grand but tiny. haha..but was okay i guess. until our performance.

kae la. it wasn`t that bad but it wasn`t good either. we hadn`t even gotten to chijmes and we ardi had trouble. cldn`t transport the drums in maxicab. ended up booking bus wid help frm ms khng. thn we were prep fer the whole thing. last prac before the ppl come la. BUT, the bass had to stop working! crappshit mann. rushed ta penin ta get it fixed. and by the time we got back, we couldn prac.

we weren`t even called up properly, just suddenly go up on stage. guess the whole thing was kinda last minute la. and maybe nerves got us too. but it`s okay. straight way aft performance went to lati, asked her whut she thought of the performance and she was lyk "err, fahmy sang off pitch again." but it wasn`t fahmy! haha..but whutevr la. it`s overrr. =)

im just glad those ppl are the graduating bunch. haha..but crapp mann. still gotta see seniors every training. haha..whutevr la.

and i MUST say. buk and adam are..i dunno how ta say it. but let`s just say, seeing the tape of whut they were doing in the dressing room....... o.O

ran 5 rounds fer nball. dats abt 4km. my timing dropped to 21min. sadded. last time was 20min 08 secs. but my fault la. eirene and syid were too far ahead, pearlene too far back so i slacked. haha..crapp. thr`s always next time. prefer mr teo training us. more..constructive in some ways? but i guess coach is still more experienced la.

umm..i forgot whut i wanted to post. it always happens. sth happens thn i`ll think to myself i shall post it later but thn i`ll forget. while my cells try to overcome stm, i shall talk bout syid.

i dunno why. i just love my darling husband. even though (s)he cheats on me all the time..and hits on our daughters. err. but i enjoy spending time wid her. sure end up laughing. today, we were being vain in the toilet. (short haired girls..go figure.) and we started getting retarded. haha..i shall not elaborate more. was bored and rie cldn come help me wid bass so me and syid went ta white sands. the most boring place on earth. but met effendi on the way home. guy frm prc. think he`s ex-lps too. aiz- nike stuff are way too expensive. o.O

ahh..whut i wanted to post, had a dream..nice/weird. haha. someone was on a stage. rock star. fingers flying over the frets. and he was performing just fer me. heh. i admit la..got an itsybitsyteenyweenyyellowpolkadotbikini crush on him. doubt he realises my existence. haha..which is good.

kae..anyways, ended up wasting money on OC mix1. in dad`s words: "why buy cds whn i ardi have an mp3?" but i lyk the music on oc. slow/soft rock. shall get mix2 next week. hmm..my room is a warzone. lalallas~ seriousli. i need to get dwn to cleaning it.

thn erm..last night i had the wishing star pizza. home delivery. grossed out. the cheese sucked. there wasn`t even that star thing wid the cherry on top. so ren, ferget abt it. it`s not worth it. thinking abt ren reminded me..i wanna go to town. see all the xmas decor.

yepps. erm. my life is boring. haha..agreed. see, even started talking to myself. a bit freaked out by some girl on the bus today. i know her la..but it`s unnerving to see her staring at me. uhh..i wonder whut it`s lyk being a butch. o.O nball has a lotta butches aei? ooh, speaking nball, sat trainings shifted to sunday. die. got a feeling dad`s gonna stop me. see how la..but thn if i am allowed to go on sat, it means i have even less free days cuz sat i have tuition anyways.

kae, all this aside, prep to play bass has been uhh..disastrous? not quite but close. i`ve only managed to get the reason out correctly. fumbling a bit on no woman no cry. and i dunt even wanna talk abt wherever you will go. but that`s whut soundcheck gets frm a last min inexperienced player. hmm..really hate stages though.

bored. this looks weird though.

taufik!! im just glad he won, and not sly. looking forward to taufik releasing an album actually. i was melting when he sang me and mrs jones. that oh so smooth voice. ms siti agrees.. =)

anyways,things are getting..complicated.

and i suppose we wunt go jalan raya today either. we all wanna go..but no one wants ta plan. smart aei? whutevr la. no mood fer it anyways.

am i so bloody heartless? i feel numb. like i dunt care..when i do. but i just dunno how ta say it.