a silent war is waging in my hse.

me against my dad.

as of last nyte, i am NOT on speaking terms wid him.

i finnally found some time to blog. and i`ve even managed ta finish all my homework. applaud me. =P haha..thnk gdness fer public hols.

have i mentioned? dmn had a bazaar to raise funds fer tsunami victims on 16dec. was a so-called resounding success. saw articles in some newspaper. 35000bucks raised. not bad fer one day. had a concert at nite. was boring though. sheikh haikal, annabelle francis, aaron aziz and his wife also came. fer like 20 mins. the rest of the time was dmn ppl performing. current and ex dmnites. kinda a waste of money. esp since it was free seating and since we were late, we were at the back whr we couldn see anything. but since it was to help ppl.....

erm..now let`s see. east zone has started. yepps. had a game on wed wid bedoktown. 40 - 5 to us. =) before the match, we were worried actually. auntie julie`s their coach. but it was okay la. though we could have done better. coach didn`t shout so much. guess she was worried more fer prcs. they were playing against plmgs. they won too. werid thing. i want them ta do well but i dunt want them ta do well. aiz-

and d juniors are doing surprisingly well. and to think we used ta say behind their backs: CCMI - Confirm Cannot Make It. haha..even ms siti. and it was only recently (nov) we dropped d first C. but there`s hope yet. =)

fixtures fer sherry:
24/1 - dmn vs bedok south [3pm]
26/1 - dmn vs tampines [4pm]
2/2 - dmn vs SAC [3pm]
4/2 - dmn vs bedok view [4pm]
18/2 - dmn vs geylang methodist [4pm]

i think ms siti put our last game and 2nd last game so far apart on purpose. cuz gms is the strongest in d group. or so we thought, until we found out sac won gm on wed. =/

hmm..well other than dat, what can i say? i have no life. yet. haha..havent pooled in a long time. havent shopped in a long time. havent had time ta slack in a long time. cousin`s coming ovr later. really feel like whacking him. empty promises. so much fer my elec. zzz

i missed my com!! ahah..didnt have much time lately ar. everytime i get home i`d be doing the tonnes of homework and falling asleep face dwn on d books. sch`s been horrible. i stil haven`t adjusted to it yet la. thn trainings have been just as bad cuz everyone`s feeling the stress.

jan 19 coming ardi. argh. worried. stressed. been close to tears a lot during trainings. last week really broke down. pissed at myself fer dat. err..had lots of friednlies too. basketballers, ex seniors juan ching sec or sth. whutevr la. just waiting fer ezone. got loads loads loads i wanna spill. but i still got more work ta do. argh. oh yea. today`s d east zone draw. ms siti sms-ed me d schs but i dunt even noe half of them cuz she smsed me their abbreviations. anyways. it should be a good draw la. we`re one of d seeded teams.

mann. i miss so many ppl. feel very outta touch lately. nahmind. cant do anythin abt it until..i got more free time ar.

mann. first day of sch. garr. hate sch. boring boring boring. mr teo e maths cher. haha..he very cute. talk a lot of crapp. just spent day slacking ar. we get lockers. not bad. sitting wid syid. class complaining unfairr. haha..trained. not bad ar. i missed coach. she was in gd mood. ren bought new shoes. d wan we wanted to buy but damn, ardi bought my white ones. argh. eirene found nball shoes! gonna her drag her down to queensway on thurs wid me. =P sorta injured my elbow. thanks to ren. mann.

it`s been a depressing day. look at the weather fer god`s sake. all i did today was snuggle up wid a blanket on the sofa and read. if i wasnt doin dat, i was eating. and to make it more depressing, the book i`m reading happens to be abt ww2. abt the jews.

so let`s review reasons why it`s such a depressing day.

1) sch`s starting. which basically means a lot of studying cuz it`s an impt yr and i dunt wanna disappoint anyone, esp my granddad. and guess whut? i am so not ready fer sch.

recently, (wed nite to be exact) i had a horrible dream. well, not like it was horrible. just dat it affected me a lot. i woke up to find tears streaming down my face. it was 2am plus. aiz- it just occurred to me, a lot of ppl were pinning their hopes on me and until dat nyte, i hadn`t really given it much thought. the more i thought abt it, the more i couldn`t stop crying.

ended up calling aqil. and when i did, i thought: "fuckwitt. you dun`t even confide in your own friends anymore." why is dat? but eventually, i managed to calm down and by 4am i was fast asleep.

also, the starting of sch means the east zone. yea. i`m dreading it. but i`m looking forward to it at the same time. just like graduation. be it graduation from nball, or secondary sch, im dreading and looking forward to it. aiz- i really hope we can go just as far, if not further in our achievements. in nball and in academics.

i hope that we will be able to surprise ppl. esp those who think little of us. i know fer a fact some of the seniors think we won`t be able to make it. but i want them proven wrong. my batch (c div 03) did it and b div 05 shall do it too. we cannot let others decide our limits. we`ll break past boundaries and reach fer the skies. (sounds cheesy..lol)

2) for the first time, i actually sat down and read the newspapers abt the tsunami today. not like i wasn`t even aware of it but i hadn`t really bothered to find out much abt it. from thr, i went and found the previous days` newspapers. imagine all the pain the ppl went through. and i found mself sobbing a bit. reading through articles, i thought to myself dat i want to be someone who makes a difference in the world.

that`s so cliched. but i just hope i will rem this and really try my best to make a difference.

in the meantime, pls do your part to help the victims of the tsunami.

although id like to keep on writing abt this, i just can`t find the words. i realise i have poor communication skills. sometimes. i can never directly tell someone what`s on my mind. or in simpler examples, on the nball court. i want my player to sth, but somehow, the words dun`t come out and we`re both frustrated.

i guess that`s abt it.

new yr.. gawd..its ardi graduating yr. so fast. i dun wanna grow old! aiz- cept mayb at least till 16 la. haha..wonder why ppl call it sweet sixteen? is it dat sweet? it`s o level yr for god`s sake. what`s sweet abt dat?

kae..let`s start wid whr i left off. sec1 orientation. it was bloody boring. a waste of my time. but thr is this cute lil boy from 1h. he`s got dwarf syndrome i think. his abt as tall as a 3yr old. but unlike the others, he`s very enthu la. and everybody noes him and thinks he`s cute. haha..didn stay fer orientation nyte. didn want to.

yest. last day of d yr! trained wid auntie julie. for once, the yr didn end wid scoldings from coach? haha..

come to think of it, i haven`t been writing reflections lately. ever since coach left.

aft lunch wid syid, rushed down to lido. met aqil praba zak. to watch meet d fockers. aha. i like the baby. =) ass. holeeeee. haha..damn cute. shopped a bit. bought shirts. met adora, prc. she damn cute la..haha. =)
i still haven`t found a bag. need new bag fer sch la. err. thn went back ta tampines at 9plus to watch ocean`s12. sucky movie. the first one was way better.

heh..kinda pathetic but i was counting down on d bus wid aqil.

instant mashed potato is not dat bad. better than d real thing actually.