Teenage Woes
Over the weekend, it seems I suddenly got a pimple outbreak. A hugely obvious one and lots of miniscule bright red ones sprinkled all over the forehead. Bloody hell. It's damn annoying. I feel so self conscious now! No wonder people are willing to pay thousands for plastic surgery and whatnot.
The worse thing is, I got harassed on the way back home. Not about the pimples but their existence was a definite blow to my self-esteem. Some guys thought it'd be interesting to question me endlessly. I kept my mouth shut but I was quite surprised. They tried to guess my race/nationality and asked from Chinese to Malay to Indonesian. What surprised me was that one of them guessed Nepal. Haha. I couldn't help but smile la. Cuz half the people I meet and even talk to don't even know Nepal exists.
Anyway. I had butterflies in my stomach towards the end of the school day. That awful feeling of trepidation. When we got to the hall, I almost immediately started freezing. And you know how it goes when the room's cold. Couldn't tell if I wanted to pee or not. Haha. Kind of nerve wrecking because Hanif talked for so long. Besides, the examiners looked.. unfriendly, to put it nicely.
I walked up to them. And they maintained their aura of nonchalance. Of course. What would it matter to them if I did well or not. It's not like I'm even their student or what. What was really annoying was the female invigilator. She bloody hell just sat there and was totally tuned out. She kept looking away, her eyes wandering to God knows where. There I was, racking my brains for some intelligent deductions I could come up with to impress them, and there's the invigilator, probably wishing she was anywhere but there. What's wrong with you?! I'm trying to impress you, right? At least maintain eye contact or what so I know I'm doing alright. And I was only the 3rd candidate, meaning she should've been in quite a good mood still. If that's her good mood, I'd hate to have been the last candidate.
Other than the not-at-all nice invigilator, I think everything else went quite well. Or at least as well as it could have gone. Thankfully, I didn't find myself at a loss for words and was very satisfied. =)
When I got out of the hall, Haryanto, Louise, Sean and Rui Long were waiting outside, apparently discussing how hard the oral was. Haha. They were absolutely apalled that I was happy with it and came out of the hall smiling ear to ear. Ha! But.. you never know. Blame it on bad luck but sometimes.. sometimes right.. you'll feel so happy and confident about something. But when you turn around. It just blows up in your face. For all I know, in the eyes of the invigilators, I might have sucked real bad because come to think of it, I think my facts were totally off.
Nevermind. It's over and there's nothing I can do about it. Just like how I can't do anything to change the upcoming Chi results. Tomorrow. Darn it. I'm more nervous about the results than anything else. It doesn't mean much to me, but it means a lot to my parents and granddad.
The worse thing is, I got harassed on the way back home. Not about the pimples but their existence was a definite blow to my self-esteem. Some guys thought it'd be interesting to question me endlessly. I kept my mouth shut but I was quite surprised. They tried to guess my race/nationality and asked from Chinese to Malay to Indonesian. What surprised me was that one of them guessed Nepal. Haha. I couldn't help but smile la. Cuz half the people I meet and even talk to don't even know Nepal exists.
Anyway. I had butterflies in my stomach towards the end of the school day. That awful feeling of trepidation. When we got to the hall, I almost immediately started freezing. And you know how it goes when the room's cold. Couldn't tell if I wanted to pee or not. Haha. Kind of nerve wrecking because Hanif talked for so long. Besides, the examiners looked.. unfriendly, to put it nicely.
I walked up to them. And they maintained their aura of nonchalance. Of course. What would it matter to them if I did well or not. It's not like I'm even their student or what. What was really annoying was the female invigilator. She bloody hell just sat there and was totally tuned out. She kept looking away, her eyes wandering to God knows where. There I was, racking my brains for some intelligent deductions I could come up with to impress them, and there's the invigilator, probably wishing she was anywhere but there. What's wrong with you?! I'm trying to impress you, right? At least maintain eye contact or what so I know I'm doing alright. And I was only the 3rd candidate, meaning she should've been in quite a good mood still. If that's her good mood, I'd hate to have been the last candidate.
Other than the not-at-all nice invigilator, I think everything else went quite well. Or at least as well as it could have gone. Thankfully, I didn't find myself at a loss for words and was very satisfied. =)
When I got out of the hall, Haryanto, Louise, Sean and Rui Long were waiting outside, apparently discussing how hard the oral was. Haha. They were absolutely apalled that I was happy with it and came out of the hall smiling ear to ear. Ha! But.. you never know. Blame it on bad luck but sometimes.. sometimes right.. you'll feel so happy and confident about something. But when you turn around. It just blows up in your face. For all I know, in the eyes of the invigilators, I might have sucked real bad because come to think of it, I think my facts were totally off.
Nevermind. It's over and there's nothing I can do about it. Just like how I can't do anything to change the upcoming Chi results. Tomorrow. Darn it. I'm more nervous about the results than anything else. It doesn't mean much to me, but it means a lot to my parents and granddad.
posted by ashh at 6:40 pm
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